Yew tea - Again

[EternalSkies]

So I have decided to drink yew tea again. Which I've tried several times before including just eating raw dried yew.
Not sure what to expect as I know the effects are highly variable. Although its winter now so maybe more dangerous?

I know from experience it can get very dangerous at times. Usually there is at least something noticeable when consuming yew.
This is the same hybrid yew I drank in my first 2 attempts in march which also got me put in psych for 4 weeks. Although I was new to psychward then
and panicked. If I had stayed cool maybe i'd just been there for a few days back then..

So let's see what happens... Im preparing it now for an hour or so. Then the harder part of drinking it remains
Maybe this is the time? Don't now but I guess its up to the universe. Eternal sleep doesn't seem too bad

 

[dalemar]

I wish you all the best, and if this is your will, I hope you find your well deserved peace!

 

[EternalSkies]

Omg the smell triggers so many feelings from that first time
Thank you for wishing me well! I will have to see what happens though
Will update if I can

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[EternalSkies]

Thanks alot <3 It's not guaranteed I will die, but maybe. Who knows

 

[BillyBob]

Best of luck. You do not mind saying how many grams you are taking of it and if you have ground it up for the tea just so people can get more information.
I hope for your passing to stop your pain.

 

[EternalSkies]

im making tea on 43 gram this time. I just dried it at 100 ceclius in the oven to make it more consumable. Now im making tea on it.
Although I know that grinding dried yew and eating it raw is most dangerous. I can't eat it right now because of gag reflex from previous attempts.
So I decided to switch it up again and make tea instead. But people have died on tea aswell

I hope I am able to drink it all. I used to be pretty good at drinking this bitter stuff 6 months back
Im scared of even just drinking it. I know how hard it is to do. Every time I try suicide or harming myself its always hard somehow
The body somehow knows what bad and dangerous

Unfortunately Im out of all sweet drinks I could have mixed it with to lessen bitterness

 

[BillyBob]

If I fail my SN attempt this year yew is my back up. Waiting for the fruit too grow so I can collect the seeds and dry them.
They have more poison then the needles and about 100 or so will do and get a coffee grinder for them so I do not have to crunch them.
And you are correct that there is more poison in winter in the needles compared to summer.

 

[EternalSkies]

I've heard people saying this. But from all information I've gathered needles are more poisonous
Also yew can be extremely unpredictable and deadly to some

I once mixed in about 20 seeds amongst yew needles. Didn't really do much difference

Okay so sometimes the tea is greenish. Sometimes yellowish. Sometimes orange. This time red.
Usually means it will taste worse... I need to dilute it with water I thnk

 

[BillyBob]

Thank you for all the information :)
Wishing you the best of luck with the tea this time around.

It is stated here and I have seen it in a few papers as well discussing it.
"While the entire yew hedge or tree is considered to be poisonous, the berries and more specifically, the seeds of the plant are recorded to contain the highest concentration levels of taxine. "

Are Yew Trees Poisonous?

Discover if yew trees are poisonous, their risks, safe handling, and enjoying their beauty without worry.

www.hopesgrovenurseries.co.uk

 

[EternalSkies]

The most common first effect noticeable on an EKG when successful to some degree is T-wave changes. After that widened QRS. And also left heartblock or something

Here is a person who died and had similar hear effects as I've had from yew: https://steinem.org/2022/07/06/yew-broke-my-heart/

 

[BillyBob]

Interesting. I will have to take a look into more about what happens afterwards when taken.
Thank you again for your information on it.

 

[Carryline]

I have tried this but I fail so badly ... hopefully you will have better luck

 

[EternalSkies]

I will probably go to the hospital so I can see if it works properly and I can die not being alone if I succeed. There is no cure so not much they can do.
I can also leave if it gets serious


Okay just drank half of it with 30% juice. It tastes bitter but not too bad. Still hard to drink though
Let's see if I can drink the last of it. And if this actually does anything

Okay drank all of it. It wasn't as hard as I expected it to be. But still hard