Years of depression and loneliness's I had no one it all started around 11 or 12 I just wish I could go and tell myself . Stand up and fight and speak up don't just let people talk about you especially when you know it isn't true.i was going through so much I missed out on so much i had such big dreams.so many fake people so many snakes i had no love I had no one till this day I have nothing one.i want this over with I've made bad decisions cause I thought my life was over anyway I don't shit what's the point of living if you have no family no love no support I'm hurting every day I can't any more .i might have some good news though about sn I have to wait and see I just transfer some money to my bank fingers crossed 
I can get sn I don't want to jinx it.i want this to be over I want out.i can't even pleasure myself with out either feeling sick or crying right after.all these fantasies in my head it's all fake it making me cry like really cry with snot and everything
I really hope the after life is real and I can find some type of love or connection or nothingness would be nice too
I can get sn I don't want to jinx it.i want this to be over I want out.i can't even pleasure myself with out either feeling sick or crying right after.all these fantasies in my head it's all fake it making me cry like really cry with snot and everythingI really hope the after life is real and I can find some type of love or connection or nothingness would be nice too
