Xanax withdrawal feels like hell

[withdrawalishell]

First of all, hello everyone and thank you for reading my post. 19 year old female here.

I'm going through a bit of a rough time at the moment (I know everyone goes through rough times but I just wanted to vent a little here from all the thoughts that are bothering me.

I've been taking Xanax for a few years now, 2 years to be exact. Every day. 3g a day is the standard for me throughout the day.

Recently I had a 3 day trip to make and I choose to go by bus. The problem was that I had all of my Xanax in my travel bag - but - I lost my bag on the bus - and unfortunately I can't get to it anymore.

My doctor doesn't want to prescribe me any more either, "since I already have enough".

This is the 5th day of my Xanax withdrawal: I feel like I'm dying, I can't do it anymore. It feels like my skin is coming off me, I can feel my soul screaming inside and I just can't stop sitting sensibly. I feel a loud drum playing in my body, everything hurts like hell.

Just like phantom pains. It's like anxiety is right behind me, whispering in my ear and AN X I E T Y itself is controlling me. I didnt had a proper sleep in days.

I can't take it anymore.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

That's very dangerous of your doctor to not believe you and to cut you off like that from a benzodiazepine especially since over all these years you showed no sign of improper usage too. There must be recourse somewhere beyond going to the ER, which might end up being the thing to do. Maybe @willitpass has some insight.

 

[Relic]

An alternative GABA modulator can help with the withdrawal. The most accessible is alcohol.

 

[willitpass]

An ER may be willing to give you a dose to temporarily stop the withdrawals, but it is unlikely they would send you home with anything to keep them from coming right back. An ER is there to stop an emergency, not treat a benzo dependence. You could try and see another doctor, but I would discourage that as that can be seen as drug shopping, so unless you're having other issues with your doctor I wouldn't advise this. Unfortunately if your prescription isn't up yet their hands are somewhat tied to due high restrictions on prescribing controlled substances, so even though you lost it, your doctor could find themselves in a sticky situation if he refills it too early. I would suggest reaching out again and seeing if there is anything that he can prescribe you that is less strong than Xanax to tide you over until the withdrawals stop and you can refill your prescription. If your withdrawals are unbearable you can always go to the ER for a quick dose and if you get incredibly lucky they may possibly be able to give you a prescription, though I wouldn't bank on it.

 

[bipolar22]

An alternative GABA modulator can help with the withdrawal. The most accessible is alcohol.

problem is you need a stady level.. alky kinda drinking. gotta to got bet wasted so still drunk when waking up. once go into a hangover they will be fucked. will be hard to a non alcoholic to get down 1 liter a booze a day. massive benzo binge on week 3 myself now. its been longer than few days so risk of seizures should be low at least. just gonna feel like shit. dont recommend the alcoholsm route. cross tolerance and depends and then you stuck on the booze

 

[iloverachel]

I am so sorry for the pain you are in my friend

 

[Relic]

dont recommend the alcoholsm route. cross tolerance and depends and then you stuck on the booze

Of course not. A light cocktail or two can just take the edge off for a moment. The other options would be pregabalin or barbiturates, but these require a script, so back to square one. Dark web access would help, but it's expensive. The doc route, the patient's age makes it more difficult. They have been feeding people pills with a spoon for years, and now suddenly there is awakening, drugs are bad, m'kay. It's just that they have to believe the patient when meds are lost, it happens. If the patient's behavior has been good so far, refusal should be grounded and not be thrown in the patient's face just to make the nuisance go away. I would offer a blood sample to prove I'm not bullshitting.

 

[dirtscooter]

I wish you well, i remember my worst day after about a 10mg(blacked out alot so probably more before i would pass out) a day etiz habbit. Was delivering pizza on the 4th of july, i thought all those fireworks were gunna set off a seizure. And the disphoric "negative high" was wild.

I was only about 4 months on that before i quit.

 

[willitpass]

They have been feeding people pills with a spoon for years, and now suddenly there is awakening, drugs are bad, m'kay. It's just that they have to believe the patient when meds are lost, it happens. If the patient's behavior has been good so far, refusal should be grounded and not be thrown in the patient's face just to make the nuisance go away. I would offer a blood sample to prove I'm not bullshitting.

It isn't the doctor themselves who is to blame for this. Physicians have rules they have to follow as far as prescribing controlled substances and they can face consequences if they don't. Controlled substances are highly regulated and there is an extensive record of every single pill that is prescribed by what doctor, what patient picked it up and when, and if a doctor is over prescribing or a patient is receiving substances from multiple doctors, things get flagged. The doctors hands are tied in this situation. It doesn't mean they don't believe that OP did genuinely lose the bottle, it means they really can't do much about it because the regulations are so strict. A blood test wouldn't prove anything either, as part of the lock down is because people pick up medications just to sell them to other people. The war on drugs has unfortunately had serious consequences on people who truly need controlled substances.

 

[Relic]

It isn't the doctor themselves who is to blame for this. Physicians have rules they have to follow as far as prescribing controlled substances and they can face consequences if they don't. Controlled substances are highly regulated and there is an extensive record of every single pill that is prescribed by what doctor, what patient picked it up and when, and if a doctor is over prescribing or a patient is receiving substances from multiple doctors, things get flagged.

The legislators around the world have received so many bribes from the pharmaceutical companies, it goes back decades. I'm aware that doctors have been made responsible for the mess that the governments have created. If the governments cared about the people, this would have never happened. Did they suddenly start to care, or is this just another transfer of power? Who controls the visibility of problems, and who will make these just go away again.

The doctors hands are tied in this situation. It doesn't mean they don't believe that OP did genuinely lose the bottle, it means they really can't do much about it because the regulations are so strict.

Doctors used to have the right to provide a replacement if the request seemed valid. Taking that away has consequences the government does not like.

A blood test wouldn't prove anything either, as part of the lock down is because people pick up medications just to sell them to other people. The war on drugs has unfortunately had serious consequences on people who truly need controlled substances.

This is also where a doctor needs to have discretionary powers. If it's a one-time thing and the patient is not known to be a dealer, punishing someone for possible future misbehavior is something else. There has already been a war on drugs, and the drugs won. The outcome of this cynical exercise won't be any different. If some people want to get high, they'll find a way. But some others find themselves tying a noose. It will probably go back the way it was some day, but not before many have lost their lives.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm sorry for your suffering!! :(

 

[Cakeisalie]

I'm sorry for you, I went through clonazepam withdrawal for 4 months and it was a real hell, I reduced it using the method called "water tritation", I use Xanax occasionally because it has a much worse withdrawal compared to clonazepam.

 

[bipolar22]

I order my lora from india in bulk. its in rupes so its way cheaper. doctors here gives me 60 mg for a months. its a joke i have high anxiety and insomnia. that last me 1 week at most.

 

[ztoi]

First of all, hello everyone and thank you for reading my post. 19 year old female here.

I'm going through a bit of a rough time at the moment (I know everyone goes through rough times but I just wanted to vent a little here from all the thoughts that are bothering me.

I've been taking Xanax for a few years now, 2 years to be exact. Every day. 3g a day is the standard for me throughout the day.

Recently I had a 3 day trip to make and I choose to go by bus. The problem was that I had all of my Xanax in my travel bag - but - I lost my bag on the bus - and unfortunately I can't get to it anymore.

My doctor doesn't want to prescribe me any more either, "since I already have enough".

This is the 5th day of my Xanax withdrawal: I feel like I'm dying, I can't do it anymore. It feels like my skin is coming off me, I can feel my soul screaming inside and I just can't stop sitting sensibly. I feel a loud drum playing in my body, everything hurts like hell.

Just like phantom pains. It's like anxiety is right behind me, whispering in my ear and AN X I E T Y itself is controlling me. I didnt had a proper sleep in days.

I can't take it anymore.

where did you originaly get xanax?

 

[AmericanMary]

First of all, hello everyone and thank you for reading my post. 19 year old female here.

I'm going through a bit of a rough time at the moment (I know everyone goes through rough times but I just wanted to vent a little here from all the thoughts that are bothering me.

I've been taking Xanax for a few years now, 2 years to be exact. Every day. 3g a day is the standard for me throughout the day.

Recently I had a 3 day trip to make and I choose to go by bus. The problem was that I had all of my Xanax in my travel bag - but - I lost my bag on the bus - and unfortunately I can't get to it anymore.

My doctor doesn't want to prescribe me any more either, "since I already have enough".

This is the 5th day of my Xanax withdrawal: I feel like I'm dying, I can't do it anymore. It feels like my skin is coming off me, I can feel my soul screaming inside and I just can't stop sitting sensibly. I feel a loud drum playing in my body, everything hurts like hell.

Just like phantom pains. It's like anxiety is right behind me, whispering in my ear and AN X I E T Y itself is controlling me. I didnt had a proper sleep in days.

I can't take it anymore.

Withdrawal is HARD. I am so so sorry you're suffering like this. It's a mental and physical game. I was given methadone (by a doctor) for a fenty addiction. I have been off of methadone for a year and still have withdrawal symptoms. It 100% plays into my want to CTB.

But the first week is the worst. I promise you. When you have to initially learn how to just live, without what you've been depending on for a while, it's hard. You also feel like shit all of the time. All of these things will get better with time.

You've got this<3

 

[withdrawalishell]

Withdrawal is HARD. I am so so sorry you're suffering like this. It's a mental and physical game. I was given methadone (by a doctor) for a fenty addiction. I have been off of methadone for a year and still have withdrawal symptoms. It 100% plays into my want to CTB.

But the first week is the worst. I promise you. When you have to initially learn how to just live, without what you've been depending on for a while, it's hard. You also feel like shit all of the time. All of these things will get better with time.

You've got this<3

Thank you so much for your kind words. <3