Writer's block - suicide note

[groucho]

Really struggling with my suicide note(s) I want to make sure everyone I care about knows it's not their fault and to describe as best I can the history of me feeling this way and to tell them all how much they meant to me despite me choosing suicide. I've managed a couple of good passages but I can't string it together in a way that doesn't read disjointed and false, even though I'm being 100% honest. I've read some famous suicide notes and they really hit home and have a beautiful authenticity which my attempts seem to lack. I'm thinking less is more maybe the best option, but at the same time I want to leave my loved ones with as few painful questions as possible.

Anyone else writing notes and how did you approach them?

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I can share one with you I wrote as a sample:

"
Dear XXX,

I'm afraid my time's up. It's been up for a long time. I just want you to know how much I appreciated your presence in my life and how much I valued you as a human. I hope you never doubt that. I wish you all the best for the rest of your life.

All my love,

XXX"

I prioritized brevity and conciseness. As you can see there isn't really anything in the way of an explanation of my reasons. I didn't wrote anything like that because I have always kind of worn my issues on my sleeve so I didn't feel a need to include that. I have drafted something separate (so not addressed to anyone) but I don't know if I'll leave something like that, either that one or a revised one. It's hard to not make it sound like whiny bullshit and ultimately I will have to go being the only one with full understanding of what drove my decision.

I'm inclined to think that you should just leave what directly comes from the heart without worrying about the technical quality of the writing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that after all, it's a personal decision deciding what to write in a suicide note, but the way that I see it, I would try to keep it straightforward with the focus being on making sure that those left behind aren't left with as many unanswered questions, I would explain why I decided to do this and say things like this is what I wanted. I guess that one could make notes of all the things they want to say before writing into paragraphs.

 

[noonipie]

it;s your final chance to be heard, to say whatever you want to or don't whatever you dont want to. try not to feel this certain pressure to be poetic or mysterious. you know what will best suit you and give you proper contentment. so follow that. it's your last chance to be yourself, not this cryptic disfigurement of what everyone else says it should be like. wishing you the best.

 

[Torch]

I'll share an outline of mine:

Dear,

I am sorry for the pain and sorrow that this will bring you. I have struggled for a long time, and I have finally come to the realization that there is no other way out.

Please understand that this is not your fault. You have done everything you could to help me, and I want you to know that I appreciate everything you have done, given, and sacrificed for me. It is important that you do not blame yourself for my decision. I hope that one day you can find it in your heart to forgive me and move on with your life.

I want to thank you for all the love and support you have given me over the many many years. I will always cherish the memories we shared together, and I hope you will too. Please know that I am not leaving because of something you did or did not do. This was my decision, and I take full responsibility for it.

I hope that you will honor my wishes and not tell anyone about this. I do not want anyone to feel guilty or responsible for my actions.

I love you all more than words can express, and I hope that one day you can find happiness and peace in your life.

Love,

Translated from Dutch so may be a little weird in places.

 

[groucho]

Thanks torch, this is basically everything I want to say to my loved ones as well written eloquently and with no trace of bitterness or blame, nice to know others feel the same way.

 

[Das Nichts]

I also found it very hard. I wrote them I'm parts, when I was stuck I just continued the next day. Over time I was able to produce something okayish.

I actually started rewriting this weekend and also consider writing just one for both family and friends.