askmeifimatree
meow
- Mar 20, 2025
- 50
I worked for this company about 2 years ago for around 1 year and 7 months. It was my first job, and I joined through their graduate scheme. I worked as a systems engineer. The pay was good, and I enjoyed the work itself.
I started working there before Israel's genocide in Gaza, and I left in August 2024. Recently, I had two interviews with a different company (which is not involved in weapons manufacturing), but realistically, I don't think I'm going to get the job. My mental health has declined massively over the past two years, and I feel like I'm nowhere near the person I was when I first started working.
I've been considering reaching out to my old employer to see whether there might be an opportunity to return, but I'm very conflicted about it. The company does provide parts for fighter jets supplied to Israel, although I personally did not work in the air domain or on anything related to those products.
At the same time, I just don't have the energy to go through multiple rounds of interviews and keep putting myself through the same process. But I also know I can't just stay at home and do nothing indefinitely.
Has anyone been in a similar position? How did you motivate yourself to start working again when you felt like you had no energy or motivation left?
I started working there before Israel's genocide in Gaza, and I left in August 2024. Recently, I had two interviews with a different company (which is not involved in weapons manufacturing), but realistically, I don't think I'm going to get the job. My mental health has declined massively over the past two years, and I feel like I'm nowhere near the person I was when I first started working.
I've been considering reaching out to my old employer to see whether there might be an opportunity to return, but I'm very conflicted about it. The company does provide parts for fighter jets supplied to Israel, although I personally did not work in the air domain or on anything related to those products.
At the same time, I just don't have the energy to go through multiple rounds of interviews and keep putting myself through the same process. But I also know I can't just stay at home and do nothing indefinitely.
Has anyone been in a similar position? How did you motivate yourself to start working again when you felt like you had no energy or motivation left?
