The guaranteed one as all I want is to never suffer in this evil, dreadful and torturous existence ever again, every second is torture to be conscious and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from the terrible, tragic mistake of existence, I want to make it so I never have to suffer in this horrific reality where there is all this endless torture and suffering ever again, non-existence truly is all I see as positive in this existence that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it.
I need non-existence to solve everything for me as existence is just so harmful and cruel, the existence of life is the most devastating terrible tragedy that just causes suffering and I find it so terrifying how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the agony of old age, all I want is to be permanently unconscious with no more suffering.