Would you kill your self if you were me?

[Limbo]

I do wake up with panic attacks. I'm sorry you don't see my reason as justification for suicide, but I can't take the pain any longer and so far hanging is the least painful

Why are you putting words in my mouth? I dont not see it as justification, Im just making a point as to why asking people is pointless. Only you can decide when youre suffering is too much. Just make sure you explore all possible options and youre not being impulsive.

 

[I’vehadenough]

Why are you putting words in my mouth? I dont not see it as justification, Im just making a point as to why asking people is pointless. Only you can decide when youre suffering is too much. Just make sure you explore all possible options and youre not being impulsive.

You're right. I'm exploring more options now, but if they don't work I have to ctb...what are your reasons?

 

[I’vehadenough]

how did they shrunk your eyes?

The whites of my eyes are missing, so I only have large pupils. It's scary

 

[ctoan]

The whites of my eyes are missing, so I only have large pupils. It's scary

i have trouble believing this

 

[I’vehadenough]

i have trouble believing this

It's true. There is still a little whites of my eyes left but not much. This is why I'm so traumatized. And no doctor has heard of it, so no one can help me

 

[Limbo]

You're right. I'm exploring more options now, but if they don't work I have to ctb...what are your reasons?

A loud permanent ringing in my ears, like a loud fan but high pitched and constant. Never ending screaming.

 

[I’vehadenough]

A loud permanent ringing in my ears, like a loud fan but high pitched and constant. Never ending screaming.

And no one can fix it? Does it interrupt your sleep?

 

[Limbo]

And no one can fix it? Does it interrupt your sleep?

its incurable. Google tinnitus. Yes, it wakes me up all the time. Its a horrific illness.

 

[I’vehadenough]

its incurable. Google tinnitus. Yes, it wakes me up all the time. Its a horrific illness.

What's keeping you from ctb?

 

[Limbo]

What's keeping you from ctb?

My mothers birthday is october. Im waiting for november.

 

[I’vehadenough]

My mothers birthday is october. Im waiting for november.

Makes sense. What's your ctb plan?

 

[ctoan]

It's true. There is still a little whites of my eyes left but not much. This is why I'm so traumatized. And no doctor has heard of it, so no one can help me

i cant even imagine what you are talking about

 

[Limbo]

Makes sense. What's your ctb plan?

Nitrogen.

 

[I’vehadenough]

i cant even imagine what you are talking about

I'm sorry. I can't make you understand, that's how rare and freakish it is. Enough to push me over the edge

 

[I’vehadenough]

Nitrogen.

I wonder if you feel suffocated doing that. Are you afraid of an afterlife or something? That always scares me

 

[Saddles]

its incurable. Google tinnitus. Yes, it wakes me up all the time. Its a horrific illness.

I feel you. I have also been brought here by the incurable nightmare of tinnitus.

 

[Limbo]

I feel you. I have also been brought here by the incurable nightmare of tinnitus.

how bad is yours?

 

[Saddles]

how bad is yours?

I'm here. Says it all really.

 

[Limbo]

I'm here. Says it all really.

I mean as in is it maskable and/or ignorable? Nothing can cover up my tinnitus. Not even the shower.

 

[Saddles]

I mean as in is it maskable and/or ignorable? Nothing can cover up my tinnitus. Not even the shower.

Non maskable except shower. If yours is not maskable by shower I'm very sorry friend. It's no life at all. I really empathise. How long you been suffering?

 

[Limbo]

Non maskable except shower. If yours is not maskable by shower I'm very sorry friend. It's no life at all. I really empathise. How long you been suffering?

its a long story, but my tinnitus has been horrible for two months

 

[Fallingsky]

its incurable. Google tinnitus. Yes, it wakes me up all the time. Its a horrific illness.

Totally understand if you don't want to discuss it, but how does that happen? Is it a result of hearing damage or can someone just wake up to it one day? Pretty scary

 

[starcrossedfate]

I also have tinnitus. It's horrific and also one of the reasons I'm ctb'ing.