Discussion Would you be suicidal if you knew when you were going to die?

[figcitylightscookie]

If you were able to find out when and how you were going to die, would you still be suicidal? For example, if you knew you'd die in 50 years from a car crash, would that make you want to enjoy life to the fullest? Or would that make you feel more suicidal?

On the other hand, how would you feel if you were dying sooner (for example, in a year), would you try to enjoy life before then? Or would you try to end your life sooner?

BTW, this isn't to say you'll be immortal until your time comes. If you attempted suicide before your time, you could be successful.

Bonus question: Would you want to know when you'd die? Why or why not?

 

[SmallKoy]

I think probably nothing would change for me. It's hard to say whether I'd still be suicidal if my death was coming later this year for example. Probably, but I am too afraid to die. I simply wish to not exist at all but I can't get over the fear of death, so I probably wouldn't ctb sooner either. I'd probably just be glad to die but also feel dreadful because of how fearful I am of what's to come after death. I also would probably feel dread at how horrible my existence has been and how useless I will have been before I died. But I would at least be glad that I'd finally be free.

 

[theboy]

Yes, I want to know when I die. It would scare me but I would be relieved at the same time. I don't know if it would make me more suicidal but that's what I would feel.

 

[Forveleth]

As someone with persistent depressive disorder, every moment I'm alive is torture. Unless I'm dying in the next six months guaranteed, I'm planning to ctb.

 

[sserafim]

If you were able to find out when and how you were going to die, would you still be suicidal?

Yes, I'd still be suicidal. A reason why I want to ctb is to decide my death on my own time and terms. I want to take control of my fate.

For example, if you knew you'd die in 50 years from a car crash, would that make you want to enjoy life to the fullest? Or would that make you feel more suicidal?

That would make me more feel suicidal because I don't want to live past 25. I would hate to live past 25. I just feel like I'm meant to die young.

On the other hand, how would you feel if you were dying sooner (for example, in a year), would you try to enjoy life before then? Or would you try to end your life sooner?

I would be happy if I knew I was dying in a year. I'd try to enjoy life before then. I plan to ctb next year anyways

BTW, this isn't to say you'll be immortal until your time comes. If you attempted suicide before your time, you could be successful.

Bonus question: Would you want to know when you'd die? Why or why not?

I do want to know when I die. I want to know just for the sake of knowing. Who wouldn't want to know?

 

[manta]

I probably wouldn't be anymore if I knew it was soon (< 10 years ). I think the reason I have such strong suicidal thoughts is the idea of having to live for another 50-60 years.

 

[bipbapbop]

It wouldn't change anything for me. I want to ctb because I cannot live with this pain right now, not because I just have an end goal of dying. I know I will die someday, we all will. I just don't want to wait that long.

 

[divinemistress36]

I have an online friend who predicts from a premonition he had I will die at 54 . I'm 36 and no way in hell I want to live to 54 how atrocious I'm ctb when the time is right

 

[Forever Sleep]

It would be useful to know when. It would depend on when and how as to what I did next. If I'm going to die peacefully in my 50's, I might be patient. If I'm going to rot and suffer in a nursing home in my 90's, I'd rather spare myself that.

 

[xinino]

I feel so content even by death that I don't mind to die right now.

 

[AnonymousL]

If I'd die in a year or 2 years I would enjoy life and do everything I want and can do in those 2 years.

If I'd have to live for 50 more years I'd still be suicidal because that's an awfully long time.

Yes I'd like to know when I will die.
Then I know if I have to end it myself or if my time is soon.

It depends on how I will die tho. If I will have a very painful death , I'd try to commit with a more peaceful one even if it's only a short time away.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I think I'd still be suicidal but, if I found out that I'd die in a year, I'd be relieved and just wait it out. However, if I were to end up dying in over a year, I'd try to ctb before

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Knowing my natural death date would probably make me even more suicidal. I can't enjoy my life bc of unsolvable problems already, knowing the end date in combination that I still won't be able to live my life to the fullest would be even more unbearable.

I would not want to know my natural expiry date.

 

[Guy089001]

Yep. My circumstances are just that fucked.

 

[willitpass]

If I had more than a year or two left I'd be even more suicidal. I have no interest in living that long. Especially not 50 years. That's 50 years of suffering. No thanks. Id find a way to CTB.

If I found out it was a year or so left, I'd be content with living that much longer in order to avoid having to perform the act of suicide. Overcoming SI truly is one of the hardest tasks. I treat myself so poorly and my health is failing so much I hope to not make it much longer.

 

[shatteredcrystal]

If I'll die in 2 years, no, because I'm somewhat scared about what happens after dying, and I will be procrastinating for the rest of the time I have.
But if it's 10 years later, yes, that is a way too long period of suffering

 

[4am]

yes i would want to know when i'd die, because literally why not.

i would still be suicidal. i want my death to come asap, i don't want to live for much longer. but if i were to die naturally in a couple months, i'd be willing to wait it out, and if i gained access to a good method a month before my death, i'd still attempt to ctb, that's just my mindset ig

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd want to cease existing no matter the circumstances, simply being conscious and aware causes me to suffer, all I wish for is eternal nothingness and what I see as the true problem is existence itself. If I knew that I was going to die soon in a way that is somewhat peaceful I'd be relieved at that but if it was going to happen in many decades then that would be terrifying to me, I've already suffered for far too long and I'm tired of suffering, death truly is the only peace and relief, I'd be glad to die.

 

[Install-Gentoo]

There's some problems with this. If you knew when you were going to die, then there's no point in being suicidal. Because that means no matter what you try, it won't work until whatever that predetermined date is. You wouldn't even be able to end your life sooner. I don't know about living life to the fullest and enjoying everything; you could still resent life and hate the fact that your predetermined death date is far away.

 

[SomewhatLoved]

It depends when.

If someone told me I would die in 60 years, then yeah I probably still would be because it doesn't escape me from my problems.

If someone told me I was going to die sometime in the next 6 months, then yeah it might make me less suicidal. It would give me what I already want and take away any need for planning and worrying, so I could just focus on my time left instead.

 

[Red Moon]

I'm definitely not waiting 50 years before my death, if it was in like a year or so I would try and use up my cash as fast as possible and do something with it. I would still be more suicidal because I don't plan on living much longer and roping my existence from this world.

 

[InAgony]

I'd still be suicidal if my death was going to be a long time, like 50 years, but if it was going to happen in a year, I'd rejoice that I was going to finally die and just enjoy as best I could the remainder of my life.

I think I might like to know when I was going to die, but then again, knowing it would be a long time away would be traumatising and I'd feel even more desperate about my situation.

 

[Ash’Girl]

I would like to know when, though maybe not the exact date, just the number of years I've got.

If I've got decades left, no way. Couple years? I'd probably quit work, live off my savings and max my credit cards, and wait for the end. Knowing the end wasn't too unbearably far off would give me enough relief to know the struggle isn't another 40 years long.

So it wouldn't make me not want to die, I'd just maybe stop agonising and beating myself up for not successfully ctbing yet, and feeling abject terror at the thought of struggling through another 3-4 decades.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I know I would drop dead 10 years today I would probably live it out. Like someone said above it's the idea of remaining here for decades more until an advanced age that I find so daunting.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Of course I still would. Literally every person is going to die. Being suicidal just means I want it to happen sooner rather than later for whatever reason.

 

[Hotsackage]

Interesting question. I feel like I've been given that diagnosis, given my mental illness with no terminality. It's really fucked up when you have a chronic illness, that doesn't have a finality. We are basically written off. So grant those who don't want to continue the right.

 

[viljalauss]

i think my answer would have been different not long ago when my greater fear was living and having to work and grow old indefinitely, but right now i do not want to live through the next year. if it were 2-3 months i would not be suicidal; longer than that, yes. and i would definitely attempt.

 

[thealteredmind]

doesn't make any difference.

 

[billie]

I'm chronically suicidal

 

[sukiduki]

i would want to die as soon as possible. if i knew i was supposed to live a very long life i would be sad about that. living is exhausting and i cannot imagine a long life. if i knew i was dying soon, say 1 year or less - i might try my best to just enjoy the time left. but i do know for sure i do not wanna live for a long time.