Would you be a happy about a deadly disease despite the fact it might be very painful?

[noname223]

I often wish I would get a terminal disease. I hate to make the decision to ctb by myself. I often imagine getting cancer. However it might be very painful and in some cases not deadly. I would hope for a better chance to get euthanasia. But be careful what it wish for it might be extremely painful. My bipolar grandmother had cancer she survived so long and became so old. That is so scary.

 

[91Days]

Yeah I wish I had a heart attack

 

[Snake of Eden]

I know. I think the same way

 

[noname223]

Sometimes I feel sorry for people who really have painful cancer and realize how awful it must be.. But I wish so bad something would kill me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would be happy about a disease if I lived in a country where euthanasia is legal. However it is not legal where I live. It would be horrible dying from a disease, but I guess it means I would not have to ctb. The thing I want is to just disappear, and not experience any dying process.

 

[Dot]

I often wish I would get a terminal disease. I hate to make the decision to ctb by myself. I often imagine getting cancer. However it might be very painful and in some cases not deadly. I would hope for a better chance to get euthanasia. But be careful what it wish for it might be extremely painful. My bipolar grandmother had cancer she survived so long and became so old. That is so scary.

Understand feelings but also be aware will be some terminal ppl on forum.

Understand not wanting to fight SI..

 

[Starryeyes]

Probably feel less guilty about it

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Pain? No thanks.

 

[apathetic.]

I've been in a lot of pain both mental and physical (cluster headache on daily basis sufferer here) and if I had like cancer I wouldn't mind the pain at all as long as there's reward in the end (death). Altho I wouldn't want to inconvenience anybody for as long as I'm alive…

 

[Anxieyote]

I think that if I had a deadly disease like cancer, it would be much easier to justify CTB. Not to mention the fact that most people wouldn't blame you as much for taking your life under those circumstances. It's a "get-out-of-jail-free" card.

 

[Death is beautiful]

I would like. I would endure suffering next to my family and in the end I would not be guilty for my death

 

[Deadly_Intention]

I would be happy to have a life threatening disease whether its painful or not. I guess cos of having BPD a part of me really wants to have a painful death cos it's what "I deserve" cos I'm an awful human being and what-not. Dying from a disease has a lot less impact on those you leave behind and they seem more accepting in my opinion... but I know my luck, If I don't CTB myself then I will live till 100 and be hated by everyone and miserable

 

[Chockles]

I wish I had cancer.
I have a debilitating physical disease that isnt terminal.
Yet meds don't help any & every day is torturous hell.
If I had cancer I'd at least get empathy eventually die.
What i have could last for decades.
I've had enough bed ridden in agony.
N is ordered as soon as it arrives I'll be CTB 1-3 days thereafter.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i would be ok with it. i would refuse treatment and ask to be kept comfortable if you know what i mean

 

[YourNeighbor]

Not one of you would write something as absurd as you want a terminal illness if you had any idea what it really meant. Even witnessing someone go through it is not enough to know.

 

[TriggerHappy]

No way :: living with and helping my mom through colon cancer (2 bouts of radiation and chemo with icu - pneumonia in middle) terrified me completely. Everyone said of all ppl, she so never deserved such pain.
She had to have a colostomy bag (but had arthritis) so it was up to me to attatch /keep it clean & functioning. She hated being dependant and shamed by her illness I resigned from saatchi UK to come home. No regrets ever, should done it sooner. But she hated that I left my career / uk to come home to take care of her.
Every awesome thing i am, is because of her.
I watched the most incredible woman (who loved her independence/ loved to dance / go to - metallica & guns n roses - rock concerts / loved my freaky friends ((before sexual /gender fluidity was acceptable))
...in 2 years become this fragile, wounded, introverted, disordered person (from the pain/shame and discomfort). The panic knowledge that u going to die if u don't want to... ugh. No words.
Watching her struggle (Catholic) mentally with the illness (sores / anal -vaginal fistula / uncontrolled bowel function /vomiting radiation bloodclots etc) melancholia and cabin fever freaked her (& secretly me out & I'm tough /not squeamish :: vet) & threw my faith into the abyss.
Her death freed me to ctb, life's less meaningfull.
So you see how devastating being terminal /physically challenged or impaired can be?!
☆ Respect respect respect to those that fight that daily // hourly battle.
I want to go in 20minutes or less.