Help Would partial hanging work if it was tied to a treadmill handle???

[m3nhera]

I'm gonna say I weigh 160lbs just to be safe, would this work? My closet rods are way too weak and I don't have a ceiling fan or anything, I feel like it would snap anyway. I can't really think of any other good place besides a tree outside my house, but then strangers would see me hanging and I'm not gonna traumatize random people over my own pain. Also that's full-suspension and idk how I feel about that. I want to die in privacy. Not necessarily gonna do it, I have a bunch of other shit to take care of but I'm trying to have an exit plan for if life continues to abuse me. Someone please help. Also does anyone know any better methods? The treadmill is in the basement and idk if sitting on the treadmill wouldn't be the right height for hanging, maybe my knees would have to be off the treadmill, but the floor is dirty and gross. I guess it won't matter once I'm dead but I really don't like getting dirty. Also would it hurt? People say partial doesn't hurt but it sounds too good to be true. Maybe I'm traumatized from when I tried to strangle and suffocate myself as a kid, and when the rope was wrapped around my neck I got a very terrible feeling like my eyes were gonna pop out, something was really strange. I must've done it wrong. The feeling was so uncomfortable, that's why I ended up untying it. This wasn't hanging but I assume it's somewhat similar. But I NEVER want to feel that way again.