Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
I would. I don't care that it would ultimately be for nothing. Being fixated on ultimate meaning has always been ridiculous to me. Life is just a dream, an experience.
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,565
Probably but idk, I can't even imagine being "normal" and not having any mental issues. My mental disorders is what makes me, me. Unfortunately.

but depression is putting this filter over me and is probably the main reason why I'm so negative and wanna ctb so I'd say I'd probably have a bigger will to live than I have now
 
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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
Probably but idk, I can't even imagine being "normal" and not having any mental issues. My mental disorders is what makes me, me. Unfortunately.

but depression is putting this filter over me and is probably the main reason why I'm so negative and wanna ctb so I'd say I'd probably have a bigger will to live than I have now
The world can be bright but one would have to cut out the internet and the media, which are like a steady stream of poison.
 
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botanormal

Mage
Nov 9, 2020
550
Hmmm, I guess it depends! If I never had these mental problems, I wouldn't have ever considered suicide to begin with. I don't think I've heard of many people who aren't struggling, who would want to ctb regardless. So if I never had the experiences I've had, then I would happily continue on with my life, because I wouldn't know how to think any differently about it. That's probably why most people condemn suicide so much, because they don't have the experiences to be able to fully understand why anyone would want to do it. Without my experiences with mental problems, wouldn't that leave me in the same position as them? Living wouldn't be something difficult, it'd be something natural. But if you meant all of my issues would just suddenly get resolved today, then I'm not so sure. You'd have to take away all of my memories before I ever changed my mind and decided to live, I think. Interesting question, I like your answer too! :hug:
 
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Kramer

Kramer

Nervous wreck
Oct 27, 2020
1,398
Hmmm, I guess it depends! If I never had these mental problems, I wouldn't have ever considered suicide to begin with. I don't think I've heard of many people who aren't struggling, who would want to ctb regardless. So if I never had the experiences I've had, then I would happily continue on with my life, because I wouldn't know how to think any differently about it. That's probably why most people condemn suicide so much, because they don't have the experiences to be able to fully understand why anyone would want to do it. Without my experiences with mental problems, wouldn't that leave me in the same position as them? Living wouldn't be something difficult, it'd be something natural. But if you meant all of my issues would just suddenly get resolved today, then I'm not so sure. You'd have to take away all of my memories before I ever changed my mind and decided to live, I think. Interesting question, I like your answer too! :hug:
Well not all your issues. Just ones that most people don't have.
 
MrBlue

MrBlue

Arcanist
Jul 1, 2020
416
I think most of my mental illness stems from my situation and general personality so I'd still end up feeling like I do.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
I think I would. My mental illness engenders some problems, but above all it amplifies problems and make them seem worse than they really are. Without it, life would perhaps not suddenly become wonderful, but it would become bearable.
 
Jon86

Jon86

Specialist
Apr 9, 2018
369
The only reason I have 'mental health' problems is because i've battled physical diseases for over 20 years now. I want to live, not as much as I used to, the flame has died down to a flicker but i'd likely find a new lease on life if I was gifted physical health.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
Jul 1, 2020
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I'll keep my physical problems. Although its damn near impossible to forget because of the constant discomfort, at the very least, but my physical problems don't seem to bother me as much as it seems to with others (at least from what I've read) just get rid of the mental please, I'd love to actually enjoy life.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
absolutely, If i Didn't get this disease my work would work much better than it curently is. gladly I don't do the rat race to work everyday. Butbits getting hard to go to work. Have panick sometimes at work where I hide In the toilet.
 
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MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
723
Yes, I'm kind of stubborn afterall. Before the whole depression thing, I'm really living out of spite and pride too. If I had the determination, I can live normally I think.
 
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FractalTears

FractalTears

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Feb 4, 2022
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Absolutely, my health is the only cause for my desire to ctb
 

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