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- Apr 17, 2026
- 25
hopecore thread to keep me and possibly others hopeful and tethered to reality.
if you weren't on this forum or in this situation, or you would be living a "normal life" or if you decide to get better, what type of life or job do you imagine you would have that you consider to be either your life's purpose or something you would enjoy doing? can be either wishful thinking, a fantasy, something realistic you think you could achieve were the circumstances different, Anything. whatever life you dream of living, whatever occupation you dream of dedicating yourself to.
for me, i want to pursue the art ive always wanted to create and see through all the ideas i have ever had.
write this one specific book or story that has been more or less one of my driving reasons to stay here. i have to finish it.
i still have so much i want to do with my characters. art, writing, all the creative debt i owe to myself, i have to pay it off. so much art, so many ideas, across many mediums, fuck, theres just so much. my head generates me ideas unprompted always. even writing. Omg. i get hopeful just thinking about it.
i also want to dedicate my life to researching a certain topic. it feels like my lifes purpose, to go down the rabbithole and find out the truth. i have two book ideas in regards to this topic which would essentially be a comprehensive history of x and y phenomenon in my country. i love history but i rather very much love hidden history (ha-ha-ha crazy tinfoil hat alert), but it would be devoid of crazy theories, im very rational when it comes to the occult anyways. just a comprehensive analysis on the phenomenon, the symbols, the events, from its first roots to what it is today. fine ok its secret societies. happy now? (and also on other topics related to the occult. theres so much omg if youve never gone beyond "big pharma, chemtrails and aliens", you might have no idea just how deep it goes.)
recently ive thought about my situation and if i can get out of it, id love to become an advocate for mental health in some way. there needs to be a complete reform of the mental health system and the perception of mental health in my country. more patience and kindness is needed, not locking up or ignoring and sedating people who just want to be listened to. and less of the boomer perception of "everyone has it hard, just tough it out and work". and to somehow implement more options into the system? like not every therapy or medication works for everyone. somehow to broaden the options available so when an individual says that this therapy or that medication doesn't work for them, instead of hopping to another therapy or med, we can give them something else to work with instead? i hope you can understand.
maybe i could also do some research in psychiatry. i had an idea some months ago, this crazy idea that id do this long and extensive research into how the more depraved fetishes and kinks develop in the human psyche. ive seen so much stuff and i can't help but wonder, how exactly does that happen? how does one end up being into insert nasty thing? how does the individual live with it? is it a source of shame, have they accepted it? its just so interesting to me. fascinating. ive always loved overanalyzing my own psyche and tinkering with its mechanisms and i want to look inside someone elses and just ponder on how the gears turn in their head.
feel free to ramble about it. id love to hear what others consider to be their own purpose, what kind of great feats you all dream about achieving yet can't seem to (no judgement here, im literally in the same boat). hopefully we can all get through whatever we are going through and still get our happy ending, even if everyones circumstances are different.
i hope maybe writing it out can rekindle the flame of hope in your hearts. ensuring your survival should be the utmost priority right now.
if you weren't on this forum or in this situation, or you would be living a "normal life" or if you decide to get better, what type of life or job do you imagine you would have that you consider to be either your life's purpose or something you would enjoy doing? can be either wishful thinking, a fantasy, something realistic you think you could achieve were the circumstances different, Anything. whatever life you dream of living, whatever occupation you dream of dedicating yourself to.
for me, i want to pursue the art ive always wanted to create and see through all the ideas i have ever had.
write this one specific book or story that has been more or less one of my driving reasons to stay here. i have to finish it.
i still have so much i want to do with my characters. art, writing, all the creative debt i owe to myself, i have to pay it off. so much art, so many ideas, across many mediums, fuck, theres just so much. my head generates me ideas unprompted always. even writing. Omg. i get hopeful just thinking about it.
i also want to dedicate my life to researching a certain topic. it feels like my lifes purpose, to go down the rabbithole and find out the truth. i have two book ideas in regards to this topic which would essentially be a comprehensive history of x and y phenomenon in my country. i love history but i rather very much love hidden history (ha-ha-ha crazy tinfoil hat alert), but it would be devoid of crazy theories, im very rational when it comes to the occult anyways. just a comprehensive analysis on the phenomenon, the symbols, the events, from its first roots to what it is today. fine ok its secret societies. happy now? (and also on other topics related to the occult. theres so much omg if youve never gone beyond "big pharma, chemtrails and aliens", you might have no idea just how deep it goes.)
recently ive thought about my situation and if i can get out of it, id love to become an advocate for mental health in some way. there needs to be a complete reform of the mental health system and the perception of mental health in my country. more patience and kindness is needed, not locking up or ignoring and sedating people who just want to be listened to. and less of the boomer perception of "everyone has it hard, just tough it out and work". and to somehow implement more options into the system? like not every therapy or medication works for everyone. somehow to broaden the options available so when an individual says that this therapy or that medication doesn't work for them, instead of hopping to another therapy or med, we can give them something else to work with instead? i hope you can understand.
maybe i could also do some research in psychiatry. i had an idea some months ago, this crazy idea that id do this long and extensive research into how the more depraved fetishes and kinks develop in the human psyche. ive seen so much stuff and i can't help but wonder, how exactly does that happen? how does one end up being into insert nasty thing? how does the individual live with it? is it a source of shame, have they accepted it? its just so interesting to me. fascinating. ive always loved overanalyzing my own psyche and tinkering with its mechanisms and i want to look inside someone elses and just ponder on how the gears turn in their head.
feel free to ramble about it. id love to hear what others consider to be their own purpose, what kind of great feats you all dream about achieving yet can't seem to (no judgement here, im literally in the same boat). hopefully we can all get through whatever we are going through and still get our happy ending, even if everyones circumstances are different.
i hope maybe writing it out can rekindle the flame of hope in your hearts. ensuring your survival should be the utmost priority right now.
haha i haven't written in a while so im a bit rusty but its ok. i used to read a lot on ao3 some years ago, i really liked this one ship, honestly i liked both the art and writing people did of them. and then i got into another ship and i made the characters my ocs so i ended up abandoning ao3 bc nothing appealed to me. still, i appreciate just how much effort goes into creative fanworks, i find people's dedication to their craft very motivating.
