Discussion dream/ideal life/job thread (hopecore)

[hahahahhkjsk]

hopecore thread to keep me and possibly others hopeful and tethered to reality.

if you weren't on this forum or in this situation, or you would be living a "normal life" or if you decide to get better, what type of life or job do you imagine you would have that you consider to be either your life's purpose or something you would enjoy doing? can be either wishful thinking, a fantasy, something realistic you think you could achieve were the circumstances different, Anything. whatever life you dream of living, whatever occupation you dream of dedicating yourself to.


for me, i want to pursue the art ive always wanted to create and see through all the ideas i have ever had.
write this one specific book or story that has been more or less one of my driving reasons to stay here. i have to finish it.
i still have so much i want to do with my characters. art, writing, all the creative debt i owe to myself, i have to pay it off. so much art, so many ideas, across many mediums, fuck, theres just so much. my head generates me ideas unprompted always. even writing. Omg. i get hopeful just thinking about it.

i also want to dedicate my life to researching a certain topic. it feels like my lifes purpose, to go down the rabbithole and find out the truth. i have two book ideas in regards to this topic which would essentially be a comprehensive history of x and y phenomenon in my country. i love history but i rather very much love hidden history (ha-ha-ha crazy tinfoil hat alert), but it would be devoid of crazy theories, im very rational when it comes to the occult anyways. just a comprehensive analysis on the phenomenon, the symbols, the events, from its first roots to what it is today. fine ok its secret societies. happy now? (and also on other topics related to the occult. theres so much omg if youve never gone beyond "big pharma, chemtrails and aliens", you might have no idea just how deep it goes.)

recently ive thought about my situation and if i can get out of it, id love to become an advocate for mental health in some way. there needs to be a complete reform of the mental health system and the perception of mental health in my country. more patience and kindness is needed, not locking up or ignoring and sedating people who just want to be listened to. and less of the boomer perception of "everyone has it hard, just tough it out and work". and to somehow implement more options into the system? like not every therapy or medication works for everyone. somehow to broaden the options available so when an individual says that this therapy or that medication doesn't work for them, instead of hopping to another therapy or med, we can give them something else to work with instead? i hope you can understand.

maybe i could also do some research in psychiatry. i had an idea some months ago, this crazy idea that id do this long and extensive research into how the more depraved fetishes and kinks develop in the human psyche. ive seen so much stuff and i can't help but wonder, how exactly does that happen? how does one end up being into insert nasty thing? how does the individual live with it? is it a source of shame, have they accepted it? its just so interesting to me. fascinating. ive always loved overanalyzing my own psyche and tinkering with its mechanisms and i want to look inside someone elses and just ponder on how the gears turn in their head.


feel free to ramble about it. id love to hear what others consider to be their own purpose, what kind of great feats you all dream about achieving yet can't seem to (no judgement here, im literally in the same boat). hopefully we can all get through whatever we are going through and still get our happy ending, even if everyones circumstances are different.
i hope maybe writing it out can rekindle the flame of hope in your hearts. ensuring your survival should be the utmost priority right now.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

my dream job is to be a theatre actor and perform plays live. and maybe also be a drag queen on the side as i enjoy that a lot too, but theatre is always my main love. it makes me so happy and everytime i do it i wonder if maybe it would be worth it to try and get better. i'm just so miserable and tired at any other time so i dont know. but i love theatre. i think of it as my purpose in a way i guess, to act, tech, and even just watch as many plays as i could.

i think its awesome that you want to write a book. i enjoy reading and writing as well. i mostly write fanfictions but i love reading original works even though i dont write it that much.

 

[Quietist]

I don't even really want an occupation.

I just want to live a "soft life" cooped up in some beautiful modern mansion with a bunch of synthesizers and a garden.

But hypothetically, if I were going to pursue a passion, it would probably be to run a plant farm with a group of women.

 

[xax]

Ideally I would like to quit my job and focus on my research.

 

[hahahahhkjsk]

I don't even really want an occupation.

I just want to live a "soft life" cooped up in some beautiful modern mansion with a bunch of synthesizers and a garden.

But hypothetically, if I were going to pursue a passion, it would probably be to run a plant farm with a group of women.

well, that's still a "job", since your work is taking care of the plants or running the logistics of the farm if youre the manager hahaha im just jesting around. still its an entirely valid answer and i like it
what kind of plants? how would your farm work? have you thought about it in detail?

Ideally I would like to quit my job and focus on my research.

what kind of research if i may ask? i want to reply to every reply i get on this thread to give everyone the ability to talk about something they are interested in if they want to talk about it. if you don't want to answer, thats fine completely!! completely optional to ramble. thank you for your answer

 

[Smiles & Giggles]

I don't believe there is any course of action I could take that would make my life feel good. But if I wanted to reduce my misery while staying alive, I would live as a hermit and minimize my human interaction outside of my tribe.

 

[hahahahhkjsk]

my dream job is to be a theatre actor and perform plays live. and maybe also be a drag queen on the side as i enjoy that a lot too, but theatre is always my main love. it makes me so happy and everytime i do it i wonder if maybe it would be worth it to try and get better. i'm just so miserable and tired at any other time so i dont know. but i love theatre. i think of it as my purpose in a way i guess, to act, tech, and even just watch as many plays as i could.

i think its awesome that you want to write a book. i enjoy reading and writing as well. i mostly write fanfictions but i love reading original works even though i dont write it that much.

what got you interested in theatre? what do you find interesting about it? do you have a favourite aspect of it (im not an expert), like the costumes, the act of acting and becoming the role while youre acting, the history of theatre, or? you can answer anything if youd like to talk about it a bit more in detail

another fanfic writer here yay! haha i haven't written in a while so im a bit rusty but its ok. i used to read a lot on ao3 some years ago, i really liked this one ship, honestly i liked both the art and writing people did of them. and then i got into another ship and i made the characters my ocs so i ended up abandoning ao3 bc nothing appealed to me. still, i appreciate just how much effort goes into creative fanworks, i find people's dedication to their craft very motivating.

 

[burgistanker123]

I would like to live in the forest, probably alone with a big library, no technology, climate like italy. I would like to never work or stress myself in any way. Nothing special, no big experiences. No other humans, no shame. I would like my own animals which I can slaughted and eat products from, hunt when needed, sleep well and around 10-12 hours per day.

 

[hahahahhkjsk]

I don't believe there is any course of action I could take that would make my life feel good. But if I wanted to reduce my misery while staying alive, I would live as a hermit and minimize my human interaction outside of my tribe.

you dont have to reply, completely optional, only if you want to ramble or share your thoughts! im just interested

have you thought about becoming a monk/nun? one of my backup plans, actually. im unsure if religion interests you, maybe not, i don't want to assume anything. but i understand the sentiment. i thought about it too. i wish there was a way to be able to live as a modern ascetic, but i know id have to sacrifice everything society has to offer, which im not willing to make just yet.
itd be great if there was a way we could experience asceticism at least temporarily so we could decide whether its for us.
what kind of asceticism do you desire? would you move completely off grid and produce everything for yourself, or live in a small village or commune (like a traditional rural village), where you don't participate in social events but still contribute to production? or something else?

 

[Forveleth]

Making things with my hands. Woodworking, wielding, even electronics repairs. Maybe some streaming too. I miss it.

 

[Bybye]

I'd be making anything creative, from writing to drawing to photography.
Living in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by lush nature (but no dangerous animals), not a sign of human life anywhere near me.

 

[whitetaildeer]

If money wasn't a concern, I'd become a zoologist, cosmologist, or theoretical physicist. Or anything to do with physics, really.

 

[K14~♡]

Oh man I've had manyyy fantasies about my future and life. Something I've constantly wanted was having a peaceful future, a chill job, living in a cozy home, with a partner I'll happily live with for life. I also fantasized about becoming a full-time freelancer artist; like doing commissions, maybe being an artist for a game, making vtuber models (but not rigging), and dabbling into that "side-hussle" stuff where you set up an online shop of your own merch. A teenage fantasy of mine was also becoming an indie game dev, I wanted to make my own rpg, dress-up games, and rhythm games. I wanted to get into programming/computer science for that reason, but I realized I was never that interested in tech stuff much. My childhood dream though was being an interior designer, but my interest was only limited to games where you can do some interior decoration and not rlly irl

Anyhow, my most recent dream was getting into psychology/psychiatry too. It's something that I had a constant interest in, though art is also the same, but I don't work well in turning it into a job (working on comms sorta felt horrible for me and I wish it didn't)
Also felt the same as you with these statements

id love to become an advocate for mental health in some way. there needs to be a complete reform of the mental health system and the perception of mental health in my country.

ive always loved overanalyzing my own psyche and tinkering with its mechanisms and i want to look inside someone elses and just ponder on how the gears turn in their head.

Though realistically speaking, the psychology and psychiatry field here don't pay well. I thought of working abroad (Actually, in all my fantasies, I'd always be in abroad lol), but it'd be difficult to get qualifications for that. Plus what I want specifically is psychiatry, like I wanna analyze/study others and diagnose them, but that would require getting into medical school which would be HELLA expensive and idk if I can even deal with the hardships of it. Most likely, if I go down this path, I'd just end up stopping at psychology, which would most likely just place me in HR positions

Before I thought of this though, I dreamed of getting through my program rn (accountancy, never wanted this but was pressured to take it), pass the CPA exam, get a well-paying job, live independently, then quit being an accountant once I'm financially secure enough, then do whatever I want. Sadly I'm not capable for this field and I realized I'm cooked when I looked at financial statements and felt fear + the fact that I don't even understand the basics enough (I took STEM in highschool man...) (being in this program also made me wanna ctb more)

Anyway, I've lost any desire for everything that I mentioned and now I'm back to not knowing what to do with my life if I continue on living </3