- Oct 27, 2020
I would. I don’t care that it would ultimately be for nothing. Being fixated on ultimate meaning has always been ridiculous to me. Life is just a dream, an experience.
The world can be bright but one would have to cut out the internet and the media, which are like a steady stream of poison.Probably but idk, I can’t even imagine being “normal” and not having any mental issues. My mental disorders is what makes me, me. Unfortunately.
but depression is putting this filter over me and is probably the main reason why I’m so negative and wanna ctb so I’d say I’d probably have a bigger will to live than I have now
Well not all your issues. Just ones that most people don’t have.Hmmm, I guess it depends! If I never had these mental problems, I wouldn't have ever considered suicide to begin with. I don't think I've heard of many people who aren't struggling, who would want to ctb regardless. So if I never had the experiences I've had, then I would happily continue on with my life, because I wouldn't know how to think any differently about it. That's probably why most people condemn suicide so much, because they don't have the experiences to be able to fully understand why anyone would want to do it. Without my experiences with mental problems, wouldn't that leave me in the same position as them? Living wouldn't be something difficult, it'd be something natural. But if you meant all of my issues would just suddenly get resolved today, then I'm not so sure. You'd have to take away all of my memories before I ever changed my mind and decided to live, I think. Interesting question, I like your answer too!
Yeah those are the issues I meant too, the ones relating to mental illness.Well not all your issues. Just ones that most people don’t have.
your name caught me off guardAbsolutely, my health is the only cause for my desire to ctb