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i am so good at not being very good its crazy
- May 6, 2023
- 35
Im pretty big on self harm but recently my depression has been getting worse, with the whole lack of motivation thing. Usually when i self harm i like to leave big gashes on my arms, the kinds that cover my whole arm in blood and make little puddles on the floor. It's pretty soothing for me. But this of course means that there has to be a cleanup afterwards, which usually takes like, 10-20 minutes. This 10-20 minute cleanup period which is not such a big deal usually has suddenly become a huge source of fatigue and dread with the effects of depression, and I haven't self harmed in two weeks. This is just really funny to me. Make no mistake that I am actually more miserable without the ability to cut myself to relieve some tension and im having a terrible time of it but wow is it kind of funny. The cure to self harm is actually to get so mentally ill you can't even do it anymore. Stay tuned for more tips.
