Worried my negative thinking is affecting reality

[snooperdooper]

I guess it's stupid, and you're all free to call it stupid. I have had this fear since even before my recovery. It doesn't help that for the past couple of months I've gotten repeated, insane coincidences where I'll be thinking of something and it'll happen right in front of me. But I really am worried that my perception of reality is affecting actual reality. I read a post about manifestation that said the brain only translates what it perceives and that can be changed. I am just worried that my thoughts do have some level of impact on reality and I am using my own thoughts against me to make bad tihngs happen to myself.

 

[scordatura]

It's not stupid. I think about this a lot too, and have similar experiences. I feel like a self fulfilling prophecy and constantly manifest my fears into reality.

Sometimes I even question my own dreams, and wonder whether it's my anxieties or, if it's telling me my own future... though I think at that point it might be stupid.

 

[broken serenity]

Maybe it's a good gut sense for things? You'll see things coming or see them as possible and then they happen and it's like totally your subconscious being smart?

I'll have things like that happen but I'm slowly coming to sus my own gut rather than anything spiritual.

 

[fromange]

That's funny because I've gone to "manifestation" stuff when I was desperate but ofc it's the same as praying and doesn't work. If just wishing into existence worked, I wouldn't be here.

But self fulfilling prophecies are real and I this that's closer to what you're saying. Sucks that our brain likes to double down on what's already there. Depression only gets worse on its own. But hopefully knowing that it's just a trick our bad brains do, we can deal with it better :)

P.s. sometimes it feels like it only works the negative way, when I'm less intentional. I.e., wishing for good doesn't work but negative mindset resulting in negative outcome... :(