Work makes me suicidal

[Parnate]

I have been working from home since Wednesday. For the last two days., I didn't really have much work and I was resting and enjoying the leisure time. But today I have been allocated work and I am so unhappy and depressed cause of this
. I am feeling so low. Also I have focus and memory problems so I am confused exactly what I have to do and afraid to ask the lead again as it won't look good. Hate this, wish I was in a western country so I could do some easy job and not have to go through all this.

 

[Parnate]

There are hard and easy jobs all of the place, but yes work is a pain and mostly bullshit.

The thing is easy jobs in India don't pay enough to sustain yourself. Also since I have a post graduate degree my parents will oppose me working and easy job.

 

[Flubber]

If your job makes you feel suicidal then maybe you need to change jobs - is this possible? Or is it that the effort of doing any work at all makes you feel down?

These aren't trick question BTW because I too am suffering from really negative thoughts due to high outgoings (rent, bills, car, food etc) and getting back into a job I like has been a nightmare since for several months. I have nearly 'thrown the towel in' on a number of occasions.

 

[ConstantPain]

I also feel stuck in the middle of a hard place with my job. I hate our Executive Director, feel targeted and bullied, yet I know there aren't any comparable jobs to switch to. It's also possible that between the fascist US government and AI, the job I have now will be gone next year. All of my 30 years of work experience down the drain and not qualified for anything else besides entry level food/retail jobs where the $ isn't enough to live on.
Is it any wonder so many of us want to die?!