Venting Words to nobody

[Saki]

I want to wake up and see you everyday. I want to fight with you and argue and laugh. I want you to be happy. But I know when I stay ill hurt myself more. I'll start to yearn for more then I'm allowed to want. Things that simply weren't made for me. Love, friendship, security, community and hope. All privileges I got to partly enjoy and the more I stay the more I want.
I know ill probably never feel like a part of you or anyone. I don't want to outlive you. It would be less selfish I know that.
I will never be allowed to love
I will never be allowed to be loved
I will never be allowed to be
I will never be allowed to feel included.

Maybe I am diluting everyday. I lost my path and my way. Do you think you can ever forgive me? You were there for me. Lying sweet words to make it worth staying. You never knew better. I didn't know better. It's our first time living.

You are a good person and I am sorry for leaving you one day.

 

[FishRain3469]

That is so Extremely beautiful and touching, I can feel the heartache and pain throughout every word.

Thank you Much for sharing this with us here on S.S. , You are Not alone. ♥