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I'm a failure. An absolute waste. A LOSEr.
Apr 6, 2021
652
I had dreams about when it was better. When I didn't have an urge to kill myself everyday.

If mental health could be reflected on the physical body, I'd be dead.
 
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heretogethelp

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May 3, 2021
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I had dreams about when it was better. When I didn't have an urge to kill myself everyday.

If mental health could be reflected on the physical body, I'd be dead.
Life is so painful. Feel free to PM me.
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
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I wake up with tears on my pillow every morning!
 
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LastOfDays

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Jun 25, 2021
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There's nothing worse than dreaming with the life you once had, with the life you could have had if things panned out slightly different.

Many hugs.
 
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Anonymous 4

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Jun 26, 2021
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Maybe be greatful that you had them dreams, even tho it might of saddened you, maybe its your minds way of making you feel something positive when your unconscious, I can imagen some people don't have the luxury of nice memory's, maybe how your seeing it is not quite right, maybe
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,521
Yes, dreams are often better than our reality. Waking up is the worst part of the day for me. Existence can be painful.
 
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CoolGuy9

CoolGuy9

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Mar 5, 2019
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I feel like my depression is cured when I'm dreaming. I feel like what a normal person is suppose to feel like when I'm dreaming: I do things like play games or talk to people or cook or whatever and I get excited about the games and I enjoy talking to people and I feel a genuine connections to these people and life just generally feels good.

One of my most common morning experiences is the shock of all that happiness and normalcy that I had as a child being stripped away and realizing that I'm going to have to live another pointless day. I'm pretty sure that happiness is just what your average person feels when they aren't plagued with mental illness.
 
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toforigivelife

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Jul 5, 2021
493
I wish I could change your circumstances, I wish I were a billionaire and could change the circumstances for everyone on SS, but I can't.

All I can do is to tell you how sorry I am that you're in so much pain.

I don't think the general population understands what desolate, painful feeling it is to look back on the days when you weren't suicidal, the days when you were younger, healthier and wish to God that you knew then what you know now.

I can only offer you my sincere support and genuine understanding and, again, express how sorry I am that you are in the place that you are in.
I feel like my depression is cured when I'm dreaming. I feel like what a normal person is suppose to feel like when I'm dreaming: I do things like play games or talk to people or cook or whatever and I get excited about the games and I enjoy talking to people and I feel a genuine connections to these people and life just generally feels good.

One of my most common morning experiences is the shock of all that happiness and normalcy that I had as a child being stripped away and realizing that I'm going to have to live another pointless day. I'm pretty sure that happiness is just what your average person feels when they aren't plagued with mental illness.
Wish we could roommates CoolGuy9. At least we could count on the support of one person who knows where the other person is coming from.

Mornings are horrible. Mornings are the worst. Personally, I cannot take sunlight. It's one of my many triggers and I've read that this is a symptom of clinical depression.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I truly am. I can understand where you're coming from. I wish I could cure it but all I can do is to offer my support and understanding.
 
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Demonnn

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Jun 30, 2021
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I had dreams about when it was better. When I didn't have an urge to kill myself everyday.

If mental health could be reflected on the physical body, I'd be dead.
I goy you bro mostly everytime this happen to me plus overthinking next till its morning and then the process repeats
 
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CoolGuy9

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Mar 5, 2019
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I wish I could change your circumstances, I wish I were a billionaire and could change the circumstances for everyone on SS, but I can't.

All I can do is to tell you how sorry I am that you're in so much pain.

I don't think the general population understands what desolate, painful feeling it is to look back on the days when you weren't suicidal, the days when you were younger, healthier and wish to God that you knew then what you know now.

I can only offer you my sincere support and genuine understanding and, again, express how sorry I am that you are in the place that you are in.

Wish we could roommates CoolGuy9. At least we could count on the support of one person who knows where the other person is coming from.

Mornings are horrible. Mornings are the worst. Personally, I cannot take sunlight. It's one of my many triggers and I've read that this is a symptom of clinical depression.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I truly am. I can understand where you're coming from. I wish I could cure it but all I can do is to offer my support and understanding.
Reading what I wrote again made me wish I had paid more attention to what I was writing as I could have written it better. Either way id love to be your roommate. Would be nice to live with someone who understands my pain and try to help them with their pain. In a way that could bring a certain type of purpose to my life. Thank you for your support. It may not be enough to cure my depression, but it's still surprisingly helpful.
 
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Cockney_Rebel

Cockney_Rebel

Everything you want is on the other side of fear.
Jan 7, 2021
455
I had dreams about when it was better. When I didn't have an urge to kill myself everyday.

If mental health could be reflected on the physical body, I'd be dead.
Waking up crying is a classic sign of clinical depression.

Medication could really help you.
 
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toforigivelife

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2021
493
Reading what I wrote again made me wish I had paid more attention to what I was writing as I could have written it better. Either way id love to be your roommate. Would be nice to live with someone who understands my pain and try to help them with their pain. In a way that could bring a certain type of purpose to my life. Thank you for your support. It may not be enough to cure my depression, but it's still surprisingly helpful.
I'm glad to help you feel better, even if it's only a little better.

I hope things improve for you. We're in a precarious position but I'll keep a good thought.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
I wish that I could cry
 

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