I think about this all the time. All the years of not wanting something tragic to happen. What was once the fear of driving now makes me wish I could flip a car at high speed. Or at least get a speeding ticket. Go on a highspeed chase for no reason other than I wanted to. Did she steal the car? No she just drove it like she stole it 'cause she could...
Afraid of taking risks? I wish I was a stunt devil.
Years of being afraid to fly, didn't fly until about 4 years ago to see my dad in his final moments, I've been on flights now that I wish would crash.
Afraid of roller-coasters and rides but got on for the rush, didn't even find any thrills at the fair this year. Just send me right off the track.
Afraid of heights? Send me skydiving without a parachute.
Afraid someone might kill me. Please do. Make it a lifetime movie or netflix documentary.
Was afraid of the apocalypse. Well this is the worst apocalypse ever. Nuke it already, bring Jesus back. Something.
My life has made little impact and being a main character in this story called life would be something.
Even if it was just local news, make this story one someone might actually read. My life has been so boring for so long and the events that happened are just tragically traumatic but not in an interesting way...
My childhood years I was daring but also cautious. As an adult I became ocd and fearful of everything, avoidant and agoraphobic.
I wish I could go back and take all the risks I was afraid to take because a freak accident would've been way more epic than dying a painful death from my illnesses...
I wasn't really paying attention to the news, couldn't hear over the fan but saw that a lifeflight helicopter crashed. Replayed it, No patients were on board and the people on board survived but I was thinking how fucking ironic would it be to be dying on a helicopter and it crashes....
Someone skydiving passed away, his parachute didn't deploy.
I don't know, I was afraid of pain and fear but in reality those things are inescapable. I wish I had taken more risks. I wish there was something to remember me by other than she was the miserable loner. I know I'm being dramatic. I actually just wish that I had had more fun, lived in the fast lane then maybe dying slowly wouldn't be so bad. Maybe it will happen quickly. Who knows.
Here's to hoping something epic happens without being too traumatic for others, at least the few I love. I have love for others but don't receive the love back. No one even bothers to check on me.
Afraid of taking risks? I wish I was a stunt devil.
Years of being afraid to fly, didn't fly until about 4 years ago to see my dad in his final moments, I've been on flights now that I wish would crash.
Afraid of roller-coasters and rides but got on for the rush, didn't even find any thrills at the fair this year. Just send me right off the track.
Afraid of heights? Send me skydiving without a parachute.
Afraid someone might kill me. Please do. Make it a lifetime movie or netflix documentary.
Was afraid of the apocalypse. Well this is the worst apocalypse ever. Nuke it already, bring Jesus back. Something.
My life has made little impact and being a main character in this story called life would be something.
Even if it was just local news, make this story one someone might actually read. My life has been so boring for so long and the events that happened are just tragically traumatic but not in an interesting way...
My childhood years I was daring but also cautious. As an adult I became ocd and fearful of everything, avoidant and agoraphobic.
I wish I could go back and take all the risks I was afraid to take because a freak accident would've been way more epic than dying a painful death from my illnesses...
I wasn't really paying attention to the news, couldn't hear over the fan but saw that a lifeflight helicopter crashed. Replayed it, No patients were on board and the people on board survived but I was thinking how fucking ironic would it be to be dying on a helicopter and it crashes....
Someone skydiving passed away, his parachute didn't deploy.
I don't know, I was afraid of pain and fear but in reality those things are inescapable. I wish I had taken more risks. I wish there was something to remember me by other than she was the miserable loner. I know I'm being dramatic. I actually just wish that I had had more fun, lived in the fast lane then maybe dying slowly wouldn't be so bad. Maybe it will happen quickly. Who knows.
Here's to hoping something epic happens without being too traumatic for others, at least the few I love. I have love for others but don't receive the love back. No one even bothers to check on me.
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