DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
It just feels weird not saying goodbye or anything.
Lost cherry
Student
- Oct 21, 2023
- 144
wtg
Member
- Apr 2, 2023
- 42
chocosyrup
disillusioned
- Nov 3, 2023
- 93
From what I've heard, friends often get in the way when it comes to this, I've heard many stories of it happening.
You can always say goodbye and talk to people here before you go.
I hope that you find it easy to find your freedom
You can always say goodbye and talk to people here before you go.
I hope that you find it easy to find your freedom
DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
yeah the one person I thought would get it told a mutual former "friend" last time I told him I was at my bridge and mutual "friend" called the cops on me. I can't afford to get found, I don't want to be a vegetable forever.
Thank you <3
tranny123
she/her
- Oct 31, 2023
- 15
we can be friends!!! i know it's not the same as a real life friend but i also want friends and don't really have any
chocosyrup
disillusioned
- Nov 3, 2023
- 93
No problem, I try to respond to all replies so if you do need someone to talk to, I'm open for another hour roughly.
DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
hopefully I'll be gone by tonight but thank you <333 I hope you find friends
tranny123
she/her
- Oct 31, 2023
- 15
i wish you luck. you can always talk to me and maybe we can be friends by tonight :)
chocosyrup
disillusioned
- Nov 3, 2023
- 93
Well we won't be able to talk very much then but it was nice to meet you.
Just curious, what method are you going with?
MatrixPrisoner
Enlightened
- Jul 8, 2023
- 1,628
DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
partial but I don't have a lot of faith that it'll actually work given my general incompetence lol
A lot, I've been suicidal since before I can remember (have diary entries about it from when I was in kindergarten) but recently more urgency as some friends got a restraining order against me because of a suicide note I wrote and now I have no friends and my career is fucked.
chocosyrup
disillusioned
- Nov 3, 2023
- 93
Wow, I just read that all of that, that sounds awful.
I truly do hope that your leave is smooth sailing and I do wish you good luck.
You deserve freedom
DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
Thank you, appreciate that a lot
I am fairly new here. However please reach out if you would like someone to just listen or to have a chat.
Daughter of Sorrow
Member
- Nov 1, 2023
- 41
Hey, did you ever try shrooms? I'm still waiting to see if I need to go to a place where they are legal to try them. It's a trip for me, long trip, so if it's meh, I'll just skip it.
iDontKnowWhat
Member
- Oct 12, 2023
- 70
CloudyNightSky
Specialist
- Oct 28, 2023
- 300
Man life just keeps fucking us all I guess. And you're having no doubt? Like it's a fucking big decision so just to make sure. Probably others already asked you that a million times and you yourself probably even more often, but ig you can't think about it enough since it's your last decision. Hope everything works out for you and Ik irl friends are something different but we all on here are your friends so
Goodbye friend hope you find your peace <33
Goodbye friend hope you find your peace <33
We used to have a restraining order against my brother-but we're fine now. He was not well, we don't hold it against him. I mean it's a complicated relationship still, but we see him and talk to him now he's doing ok. He's done that much stuff I can't even really remember what triggered us getting the restraining order! It's not really that big a deal if you are not violent and abusive (which hopefully you're not) but obviously it got put in place for a reason. You can always make new friends, it's just up to you whether it's worth trying for that. But think about it A LOT (I'm sure you already probably have been) before you do anything.
Edit to add-I'm sorry you feel betrayed by your "friend" calling the cops but from their perspective they'd have probably felt guilty forever if they hadn't done anything so I guess I'm just saying they probably really cared and thought they were doing the right thing.
MatrixPrisoner
Enlightened
- Jul 8, 2023
- 1,628
I've tried shrooms. It somewhat turns your reality into a very distorted, somewhat frightening experience. I almost ovedosed on LSD in college and I thought I was falling down a long tunnel to hell. Ketamine was the most awesome experience for me. I felt like a I was trapped forever in a room that was in another dimension, never to return to my normal life.
emptyhome98
apocalyptic triumphator
- Nov 4, 2023
- 12
AshClouds
In time I started growing inward.
- Apr 10, 2023
- 297
I too don't really have any close friends, but I'm the opposite, I'd go to great lengths so people wouldn't find out.
DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
I didn't, I forgot last time I was in the city :( maybe next week?
I feel like I have no doubt until I go to the bridge and SI gets in the way
thank you though.Helpful to hear your side of it. The friends thing is one thing, but having it on my background check forever as someone who wanted a foreign policy career and needs a security clearance and crystal clear background is what's really fucking me up.
@DyingToDie123 I understand if you had your heart set on that career that must be such a blow. Is there anything else you want to do?
DyingToDie123
she/her
- Oct 25, 2023
- 385
Not really tbh. I was starting to lose motivation to do even that before this whole thing started.
Daughter of Sorrow
Member
- Nov 1, 2023
- 41
Next week will be more than fine. I'm not planning on going anywhere. And if you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to DM me.I didn't, I forgot last time I was in the city :( maybe next week?
I feel like I have no doubt until I go to the bridge and SI gets in the way
Helpful to hear your side of it. The friends thing is one thing, but having it on my background check forever as someone who wanted a foreign policy career and needs a security clearance and crystal clear background is what's really fucking me up.
