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I've been thinking and sometimes obsesed about suicide because there are many things I don't like in my life causing me suffering and can't change those things. But the thing is, with time (i'm 28 years old now) I have learned to enjoy solitude and being on my own, I even thought could be happy like this. The problem comes when you always have neighbours who make your life impossible most of the time, when you have to meet your negative family, when you have to work because people are mostly treated very bad almost everywhere, specially if you are a different kind of person it's like you become the focus of the rest and that's very un comfortable. At the end, I think I will be ctb because can't really find any peace in my house and I don't even have a car to go to the mountain, and most of all I can't deal with working. It makes me very sad not having money to buy a house in the mountain or far from people. At the end I guess I could end up bored because a lonely life is not very fulfilled no matter how cool it is
 
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I like being alone too, being in large crowds gives me a good heaping helping of stress and crippling anxiety. I think its a matter of finding people who you can trust, whose company you enjoy, but it's difficult as of late as everyone is busy these days, distracted--and there's also a lot of tension, you don't know who to trust anymore. Some days I wish I could live in moominvalley, in a beautiful and peaceful place where the thought of harming another person is unthinkable and met with contempt.
 
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I love being alone. Being with the right kind of people can give you the feeling that you have support. I wish I could live a life where I could choose when, where, and how I interact with people. My inability to keep a normal job is a big factor. All in all, if I could live a different life, then I would at least give it a try. I'm making a last ditch effort to do everything I can to better my life. If I can't, then I hope I have the courage and clarity of mind to do what I gotta do.
 
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I like being alone too, being in large crowds gives me a good heaping helping of stress and crippling anxiety. I think its a matter of finding people who you can trust, whose company you enjoy, but it's difficult as of late as everyone is busy these days, distracted--and there's also a lot of tension, you don't know who to trust anymore. Some days I wish I could live in moominvalley, in a beautiful and peaceful place where the thought of harming another person is unthinkable and met with contempt.
Yeah I think it's about finding your place, but most people don't find it or even don't imagine how it could be. Your utopic idea sounds good that's how things should be, but the law in our world is the jungle law. And if you are a true nice person you are dead, people don't like nice people despite they are obsesed with happiness and how nice they are. Everything is very hypocrital.
 
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In my opinion, it's definitely better to be alone than be around people. Many other people just create more suffering and just make things worse. Wherever there are people there is the potential for harm to be created. I also find being around people to be tiring as well.
 
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In my opinion, it's definitely better to be alone than be around people. Many other people just create more suffering and just make things worse. Wherever there are people there is the potential for harm to be created. I also find being around people to be tiring as well.
It's fucking tiring and digusting when you are different. I remember working in retail like a living nightmare... People is hell on Earth. But it's heartbreaking not having good friends and nice lovers. I think life is about nature and love bt people.
 
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I've accepted the fact that I am not for this world.

Thus I withdraw my connection to it.

People will always have something to say about you, all you can do is shrug it off.

Walk amongst the hylics of this world as a sage, an enlightened one.

Don't let their energy even so much as touch you.

In fact it can't touch you, because you have a shield that repels it.
 
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Yeah I think it's about finding your place, but most people don't find it or even don't imagine how it could be. Your utopic idea sounds good that's how things should be, but the law in our world is the jungle law. And if you are a true nice person you are dead, people don't like nice people despite they are obsesed with happiness and how nice they are. Everything is very hypocrital.
Don't let this world kill your happiness. I've given up on people, I no longer look to them for happiness or comfort, instead I turn to nature, music, art. These things have never disappointed me. It's okay to indulge in childish things too like cartoons, fairy-tales and fantasy, our biggest mistake is in letting this part of ourselves die first. Having an active imagination and being young at heart can get you through a lot in this world, it is the means of creation, connecting with others and self-expression/self-discovery. I use mine to cope with the motions of ctb. I hope you'll be able to find peace here on earth, I wish you all the best.
 
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Don't let this world kill your happiness. I've given up on people, I no longer look to them for happiness or comfort, instead I turn to nature, music, art. These things have never disappointed me. It's okay to indulge in childish things too like cartoons, fairy-tales and fantasy, our biggest mistake is in letting this part of ourselves die first. Having an active imagination and being young at heart can get you through a lot in this world, it is the means of creation, connecting with others and self-expression/self-discovery. I use mine to cope with the motions of ctb. I hope you'll be able to find peace here on earth, I wish you all the best.
I do the same thing, I find lots of comfort in nature, music, books, drawing, watching art or films, just stay relaxed... But this only works if I'm out of the world and don't have the need of working and interacting with humans beings. I decided to ctb, not coming back to my nice personality. It doesn't work in my world.
 
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I also love being alone - loneliness is amplified when Im with others.
 
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I do the same thing, I find lots of comfort in nature, music, books, drawing, watching art or films, just stay relaxed... But this only works if I'm out of the world and don't have the need of working and interacting with humans beings. I decided to ctb, not coming back to my nice personality. It doesn't work in my world.
I wish u the best too.
I've accepted the fact that I am not for this world.

Thus I withdraw my connection to it.

People will always have something to say about you, all you can do is shrug it off.

Walk amongst the hylics of this world as a sage, an enlightened one.

Don't let their energy even so much as touch you.

In fact it can't touch you, because you have a shield that repels it.
They touch you believe me... They defenetely touch you and eat you too.
 
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Being with the right kind of people can give you the feeling that you have support.
Your instincts should tell you whether the people you are with are supportive or not. If they are you will know it and if they aren't they will make you feel alone and isolated. Surround yourself with people that want the best for you that celebrate with you and don't envy you.