Being suicidal makes me feel liberated (On The Edge)

[darksoul999]

I am not sure what this feeling is but living on the edge of life makes me feel alive.

Life itself seems like a broken record replaying itself on the daily basis, a constant loop that never ends.

Each day replayed over and over again that revolves around only a few main things.

Work, eat, sleep, dopamine refill. repeat.

Its so mondain and boring isn't it?

Too feel trapped like an animal, wanting to be free from your personal cage but your own survival instincts keep you enslaved.

The feeling of wanting to jump into the absolute unknown (death) feels so freeing and liberating to me.

You find yourself on the highest mountain with a breeze blowing through your hair, adrenaline pulsing through your veins as you stare below into the abyss.

All you have to do is jump...

There is something very freeing in this.

this i know.

 

[SimplePeaceOfMind]

I relate to that, in a way of feeling some comfort, when I know that I have a way out.
With the problems that I have and if they worsen, I think of suicide and my little setup (that I believe it will hopefully work), and it gives some kind of confort.

 

[darksoul999]

I relate to that, in a way of feeling some comfort, when I know that I have a way out.
With the problems that I have and if they worsen, I think of suicide and my little setup (that I believe it will hopefully work), and it gives some kind of confort.

Seeing the "exit door" makes you feel like you are not tapped.

That at any moment when it becomes to much, you can just leave.

it is freeing, isn't it.