Perhaps to some people, yes, it will be. For others who may have known me IRL and what not, they might have "saw signs and feel guilty" but I would neither dispute and contest it because for one, I would be gone and would not be able to do so (after all, once I'm dead there is nothing left to fight over), and the other one, I would be rather foolish and stupid to try to drop red flags or hints, jeopardizing my own bus ticket or the bus stop. At the end, I just want to end my own suffering above all else.