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Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
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Just curious if anyone will be listening to music when they ctb, please share any song/songs that you plan on listening to.
Personally I have a whole playlist that will be on shuffle when the time comes, but the song that i'll 100% be listening to is Silver Soul - Beach House
I look forward to seeing what songs people put!!
 
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Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
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Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
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Subhumano

Subhumano

I dont have friends
Apr 20, 2025
178
Probably not
 
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slurpkoi

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Feb 20, 2025
38
I was all over her- Salvia Palth
 
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diopdawe

diopdawe

Member
Mar 29, 2025
92
Linkin Park - One more light
 
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divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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notrllycherub

notrllycherub

Apr 18, 2025
39
there are so many songs i want to listen to that i will propably have to make a separate playlist lol

i'll most likely add some songs from deathconsciousness and The Glow, pt.2, also a few Grimes songs
 
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Bakkalon

Member
Apr 27, 2025
5
I would probably play something by Yes, maybe Close to the Edge.
 
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

why couldn't it be me?
Feb 3, 2025
515
Music is something beautiful. Beauty would make me reconsider.I don't want to reconsider. Once I'm gone, I'm gone. I am leaving a playlist for my funeral, however, so people who care can remember me the way I'd like to.
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
I don't think so.I don't want that shit playing when they find me.
 
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Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
277
Music is something beautiful. Beauty would make me reconsider.I don't want to reconsider. Once I'm gone, I'm gone. I am leaving a playlist for my funeral, however, so people who care can remember me the way I'd like to.
semi agree with this but i find that some songs give me a feeling that ctb is the right decision and pushes me into wanting to do it more. idk if that even makes sense
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
394
Yes, I think I will. Probably. There is a small chance I'll remove my headphones so that maybe if I jump off a cliff the headphones won't save me. But I probably will be listening to music again. When I try to hang myself I listen to music too.
 
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Hazrakaht

Hazrakaht

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Apr 28, 2025
18
There's something that seems beautiful to me dying in silence and only having my thoughts as life leaves my body. That being said if I had to pick a song It'd be rusty cage by soundgarden
 
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Knoc

Knoc

FATAL ERROR
Apr 21, 2025
88
I'm so gone i can't even enjoy music anymore.

Mental ilness has taken every piece of who i used to be.
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
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Yes, I will definitely need some background 'noise' or music... to feel accompanied.

Obscured (Celtic Frost), I think it has a perfect atmosphere:

 
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here_for_now

here_for_now

is this by design?
Jan 27, 2025
124


Feels like a sunset for my life.
 
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Cirno

Cirno

Masochist
May 12, 2025
43
I'm really emotionally attached to both of them~


 
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c.c

Student
May 3, 2025
129
definitely
THE GREATEST- BILLIE EILLISH


cuz that's the only song that helps me fall asleep and would love to listen to it while falling into forever sleep

And while preparing for CTB ~
 
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FishRain3469

Specialist
Mar 12, 2025
333
Most Definitely..

 
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Rynalia

くたばりぞこない
Apr 22, 2025
305
I usually have IEMs in my ears. Always listening to something. Done so basically every attempt.
 
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spacechild

Member
May 8, 2025
17
Yes this one
 
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Flirtingwithdemons

Member
Aug 28, 2024
18
Yes, without a doubt. Music is a big part of my life- I love going to gigs and festivals. I also struggle to express emotions and music helps with that too.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
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Music permeates my life also.
 
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