Did you find you're carotid arteries before hand? Even with just your thumbs.
bean bags / strap ?
I'm not sure on this way.
t both cant find spot just make my head explode.
Depending on your size / weight etc. Depends on the person. Sometimes it's easy sometimes it's harder. Even for me personally the one on my left side easy find with a bit of pressure with my thumb. Right side is tricky for me don't know why.
You can try flipping your hands upside down your fingers behind your head/neck. And your thumbs will land pretty close. Under jaw. Apply some thumb pressure. Feel pulsing. That's them.
I think it's 4-6 pounds of pressure for 20-40 seconds. Technically should be passed out by then.
If not the blood flow can possibly not be completely cut off. Hence the fighting blood flow fuzziness, pounding head , etc.
and not passing out.
so was gona drink a truckload of vodka take aload of sleeping pills
How much is a truck load. Specifically.
Are you taking any anti - puke / pepto
You're body will fight. And puke. Depending on the amount of both and if it's OTC.
I've take stronger drugs then sleeping pills and unfortunately I'm still here and have woken up in puke.
and sit in hot tub with a 10kg weight vest on
I can't say it's not possible , but I'm not sure how successful it can be either.
In retrospect it makes sense. There are people who have drowned due to.over dose. But it was with much stronger drugs.
Also I personally just get freaked out about water things. Even if your knocked out does your body realize you're drowing and start to fight unconscious but conscious. Brain knows you need air but you can't move. But that's just a weird thought i have.
maybe try tourniquet with that while in hot tub with drink n sleepers.
I can't say about tourniquet. Not sure.
..im desperate i dont wana be here anymore
everytime i try something n doesnt work makes me even more hopeless that im stuck here in this hell
failed attempts fucking suck , I hear yah. I think I'm up to 3 or 4 now. Get a little enraged to say the least.
But I just think it of as a learning process.
Not sure why you're here exactly but sorry you are and hope you find peace in your journey on whatever you choose.