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thisiswhoiam-

Member
Mar 21, 2023
63
Probably a little over a month. I've been trying to diagnose it from many sides but it's still unsure what is the cause.
 
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RichardFirst

RichardFirst

Specialist
Jan 16, 2021
383
As things stand, yes.
 
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Kundalini Guy

Kundalini Guy

FULLY RECOVERED
Mar 27, 2023
516
100% yes. I have never thought about suicide in past years but I know if I put my mind to something I always get it, so I know this year will be my final and am very happy about it.
 
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killmeiwannadie

Member
Sep 19, 2022
41
feels like it
 
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LostCauseLooknToCTB

LostCauseLooknToCTB

YoungLostHoplessandAlone
Apr 6, 2023
51
Yup I know my method Im going to try it when I'm ready
 
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Octavia

Octavia

“I’d… rather kill myself.”
Mar 4, 2023
363
I am definitively going to die before the next holidays season. Hopefully within a month from now.
 
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AJAX

AJAX

AJAX
Apr 3, 2023
13
honestly i dont think so, i think i will amke it until next year. I have always hated odd numbers
 
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StarFaded

StarFaded

Member
Aug 24, 2022
80
I can definitely see how this will be my last year on this planet and I very much want that for myself too.
 
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samishii

samishii

What's the point?
Dec 24, 2021
103
At any cost
 
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BlackWednesday

BlackWednesday

Student
Oct 18, 2022
112
Yes. I'm planning to attempt this month
 
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thereisnomeaning

thereisnomeaning

To live here is my nightmare
Mar 15, 2023
54
I really hope it is. But also I can't say for sure, I've been saying I wouldn't make it anymore since I was 13, and I'm still around for whatever reason
But if planning goes right I'll be outta here in a couple months
 
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Shinobu

Shinobu

Ignorance is bliss.
Apr 5, 2023
56
definitly i cant imagine another year another 4 months is hard enough hopefully ill be gone by summer time
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
722
I'll be gone by the end of the summer. I don't want to be here when this society collapses anyway.
 
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CentreMid

CentreMid

Sorry
Aug 23, 2018
478
I'm not sure. If not this year, then certainly within the next 2 years. I need to tie up some loose threads but it will take a while for one specific thread to be tied, and it is one of the most important threads to tend to (for lack of better words), so I can't just go without dealing with it first. Hopefully I'll have things in order sooner rather than later though
 
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LigottiSchopenhauer

LigottiSchopenhauer

Student
Jan 7, 2023
108
This fall will mark the 10-year anniversary of the first time I felt suicidal. At the time, I was 16, and friends told me "why not just wait 10 years until you're 26?" Well, I did, and so I plan to CTB around that anniversary (unless something dramatically changes in my life for the better by then, which I doubt it will).
 
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Dominicka

Member
Dec 22, 2021
98
I'm planning on CTB before Summer ends, possibly before Summer even starts.

I have been having more panic attacks as the time gets closer. I don't have a specific day in mind, but have my method ready to go whenever the time feels right.
Me too, I'm aiming for end of summer.
 
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GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
1,881
Yep.
 
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juliano2001

juliano2001

sad
Feb 19, 2023
19
hoping it will be mine!
 
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Krobo

Krobo

Member
Feb 5, 2023
38
Getting older, health problems stacking up and not getting fixed. Not going to wait around for them to keep getting worse. I'm ready to leave within an hour at any time.
 
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BasqueClown

BasqueClown

Zirkua ata heriotza
Jun 9, 2022
121
I'll decided to leave until 26 April so 2023 will be my last year on Earth
 
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jerry545

jerry545

Member
Dec 28, 2022
18
hopefully. I don't want to suffer more because other people expect me to live a meaningless life.
 
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martinso67

All human rights are important
Feb 5, 2021
232
Yes, for me I hope.
I am planning new ways to do that.
But it's hard, because the only feasible way is N.
Someone sued the government and the constitutional judiciary gave the right for the NGO that's pushing for voluntary Euthanasia.
The constitutional judiciary gave right because the law that makes it illegal to help someone to suicide himself is against human right (self-determination/self-agency of a human is not respected with that law).

The thing is like I want to have access to N.
It's the perfect way for me and i feel less stressed. How can I go to doctors if he does not respect me at all.
I have many reasons to want to die.
For me life is like a nightmare.
I coped for a long time since my childhood. But now it is the end.

I suffer from actually not healable diseases like:
High blood pressure. Chronic kidney disease (will need a new kidney or dialysis in the (near?) future, Asthma (lung has only medium functionality), flatfoot,
Social anxiety: (problem when it is a non-business like (not superficial) relationship like going to Doctor, meeting new friends, talking more deep conversation with people.
Anxiety of people or diseases, mood swings, somewhat anhedonia.
I cant live in a society, it's like a prison. It was hard for me enough having some relationship and sexual experience. Every need that I want to satisfy that needs human like going to doctor, eating, sexual/romantic relationship, friendship) is a struggle and stressful for me.
It is still now. Therapy helped cub the symptoms that are visible to people. But I suffer in my mind and sleep
I cant sleep well, etc.
Me CTB with that medication is a protection against more and real severe suffering in the future. My nightmare which my life is moving to is: to be bed-ridden sick or disabled. I am already suffering with vision impairment. Today when I trained at home to improve my muscles. My vision did get back blurry again. I already suffer from vision noise and floaters and this. I try my best to be healthy and nice. I cant do keto diet because I am already underweight. But I avoid sugar and lowered my carbohydrates intake. I eat salads and vegetables regularly.

It's really unfair and I disrespect society and the state for curbing my only freedom which is my body ( I am not for violence or any protests,etc.) society. You guys are the only people I can open up to.
My decision to CTB peacefully does not affect anyones freedom. I am unemployed (cant work) and I don't have any children or partner.
I am unimportant for the economy and I never went voting (not voting is legal in my country).
I would want to write a rational document why I want to CTB and submit it to my doctor or an agency and get my N after some waiting time like 30 days.
I am not able to have children and I don't want to have children.
Please respect my freedom. Thank you for letting voice my opinion.
 
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bigdog

Arcanist
Jul 12, 2020
434
Unfortunately I think so
 
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leap_from_life

leap_from_life

Member
Apr 5, 2023
43
Immediately, when I find my method
 
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Spaztism

Spaztism

Sleep Forever
Mar 13, 2023
32
As soon as I find a good method I can use I'm doing it. Losing my mind more and more everyday I feel
 
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