Yes, for me I hope.
I am planning new ways to do that.
But it's hard, because the only feasible way is N.
Someone sued the government and the constitutional judiciary gave the right for the NGO that's pushing for voluntary Euthanasia.
The constitutional judiciary gave right because the law that makes it illegal to help someone to suicide himself is against human right (self-determination/self-agency of a human is not respected with that law).
The thing is like I want to have access to N.
It's the perfect way for me and i feel less stressed. How can I go to doctors if he does not respect me at all.
I have many reasons to want to die.
For me life is like a nightmare.
I coped for a long time since my childhood. But now it is the end.
I suffer from actually not healable diseases like:
High blood pressure. Chronic kidney disease (will need a new kidney or dialysis in the (near?) future, Asthma (lung has only medium functionality), flatfoot,
Social anxiety: (problem when it is a non-business like (not superficial) relationship like going to Doctor, meeting new friends, talking more deep conversation with people.
Anxiety of people or diseases, mood swings, somewhat anhedonia.
I cant live in a society, it's like a prison. It was hard for me enough having some relationship and sexual experience. Every need that I want to satisfy that needs human like going to doctor, eating, sexual/romantic relationship, friendship) is a struggle and stressful for me.
It is still now. Therapy helped cub the symptoms that are visible to people. But I suffer in my mind and sleep
I cant sleep well, etc.
Me CTB with that medication is a protection against more and real severe suffering in the future. My nightmare which my life is moving to is: to be bed-ridden sick or disabled. I am already suffering with vision impairment. Today when I trained at home to improve my muscles. My vision did get back blurry again. I already suffer from vision noise and floaters and this. I try my best to be healthy and nice. I cant do keto diet because I am already underweight. But I avoid sugar and lowered my carbohydrates intake. I eat salads and vegetables regularly.
It's really unfair and I disrespect society and the state for curbing my only freedom which is my body ( I am not for violence or any protests,etc.) society. You guys are the only people I can open up to.
My decision to CTB peacefully does not affect anyones freedom. I am unemployed (cant work) and I don't have any children or partner.
I am unimportant for the economy and I never went voting (not voting is legal in my country).
I would want to write a rational document why I want to CTB and submit it to my doctor or an agency and get my N after some waiting time like 30 days.
I am not able to have children and I don't want to have children.
Please respect my freedom. Thank you for letting voice my opinion.