SomewhatLoved
I now know the depths I reach are limitless
- Apr 12, 2023
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Today was my birthday and I felt invisible. Not different from any other day, but it made me feel sad because as a kid your birthday was always a big thing and not feeling noticed made me feel kind of shitty.
My parents both texted me but I feel like that barely counts - they were both in the room when I was born and have raised me. Otherwise the only people who I heard from were people I know on Facebook commenting happy birthday on my profile, but I feel like that doesn't count given that it literally notifies them that it's my birthday.
I had a shift today so that's how I spent 12 hours/most of my day. Woke up, got my uniform on, went in, pretty typical day. I was kind of hoping my work partner would remember and wish me a birthday. I've been working with them for almost a year and we went to post-secondary together. My birthday was a school day so he was there for a previous birthday of mine. But no, he didn't remember. Eventually I sort of brought it up in conversation and then he gave me some well wishes, but he clearly didn't remember.
After work I went and got a doughnut from a local bakery that I like. It was okay, but they were sold out of my favourite flavours so even that was kind of a disappointment for me. Then I came home, starched and ironed my uniform for the next day, ate dinner and packed my lunch, and here I am. Outside of work I haven't talked to anyone. None of my "friends" reached out to me. Not a single conversation all day outside of work-related stuff.
I like my job and in some ways I was glad today was a work day for me so that I wasn't completely alone on my birthday, it allowed for some distraction. But at the same time it makes me feel kind of just even more depressed that this is really all that I have.
My parents both texted me but I feel like that barely counts - they were both in the room when I was born and have raised me. Otherwise the only people who I heard from were people I know on Facebook commenting happy birthday on my profile, but I feel like that doesn't count given that it literally notifies them that it's my birthday.
I had a shift today so that's how I spent 12 hours/most of my day. Woke up, got my uniform on, went in, pretty typical day. I was kind of hoping my work partner would remember and wish me a birthday. I've been working with them for almost a year and we went to post-secondary together. My birthday was a school day so he was there for a previous birthday of mine. But no, he didn't remember. Eventually I sort of brought it up in conversation and then he gave me some well wishes, but he clearly didn't remember.
After work I went and got a doughnut from a local bakery that I like. It was okay, but they were sold out of my favourite flavours so even that was kind of a disappointment for me. Then I came home, starched and ironed my uniform for the next day, ate dinner and packed my lunch, and here I am. Outside of work I haven't talked to anyone. None of my "friends" reached out to me. Not a single conversation all day outside of work-related stuff.
I like my job and in some ways I was glad today was a work day for me so that I wasn't completely alone on my birthday, it allowed for some distraction. But at the same time it makes me feel kind of just even more depressed that this is really all that I have.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 
I hope we help you to feel less lonely 
and a big cake 
