Illegal Preclear
The CEO of CTB
- Sep 6, 2022
- 217
I've never attempted this before, full suspension or partial. But I want to 'practice' partial so to speak, as I've seen many do here. I have the option for full suspension, as I have a perfect spot in my house to do it from. I'm scared as hell, tbh. I've never attempted any CTB method before and actually having the ligature in my hand and putting it over the shower makes it all feel so real. I have no idea what actual SI feels like in the heat of the moment. I just have the house to myself for the next couple days and nights. I have plenty of time to do this without being discovered. As for the ligature - it looks stretchy and spongy but actually has no give to it and is a lot sturdier than it looks. It's 2 inches wide and 6ft long. I'm roughly 120 pounds and 5' 1" so it doesn't have all that much mass to hold. Like I said, I have a railing over the stairwell in my house if I want to do full suspension, and I have the shower here for partial. What do you guys think? Is this a good choice of ligature? I'm brain damaged enough as it is from years of Schizophrenia medication, I don't want to be a vegetable.... BTW Schizophrenia sucks. It's the reason I have no other option than to CTB. Would not recommend.