Help will I get sent to the mh over this?

[brokenhands]

hello, I have an appointment with my psych tomorrow and I've had kind of an... indirect attempt? and I wonder if it will get me sent to a hospital. I am probably overthinking this, but I REALLY don't want to go there right now, so I'm debating on whether I should even tell him that.

more about the "attempt": because of my recklessness I've ended up getting a concussion, I'm pretty sure it was indeed a concussion because of all the symptoms. and I thought fuck it why even bother going to the doctor - and so I just kept living and going to work like that. at one point I was pretty sure I was going to die,I felt weaker and weaker every day, my head spun like crazy and I could barely stand. my arms and legs were shaking so much and I was constantly on the verge of fainting. even then I did nothing, I just hoped I'd faint and never wake up from that. I get how silly that sounds now, but I guess the concussion did something to alter my thought process, and I genuinely believed that. so while it wasn't a full-on suicide attempt - it was something like that?? I definitely thought I'd die.

this happened 2 weeks ago and since then the symptoms have gradually died down and I almost feel fine now. I want to tell my psych about that, but I'm afraid what if I will get admitted involuntarily. I am probably overthinking, sorry

 

[minsolive]

just want to clarify; do you want to tell the psych about how bad the concussion got or you hoping it would kill you? telling them about the concussion itself is a good idea, esp if meds are involved. but also i think it can be useful to be honest with (good) mental health professionals but obviously being involuntarily committed is a concern. so long as you don't seem like an active threat to yourself you should be good, if you do want to avoid the mh. i hope your appointment goes well! sorry im not much help!!!

 

[Thisiscertainlyause]

hello, I have an appointment with my psych tomorrow and I've had kind of an... indirect attempt? and I wonder if it will get me sent to a hospital. I am probably overthinking this, but I REALLY don't want to go there right now, so I'm debating on whether I should even tell him that.

more about the "attempt": because of my recklessness I've ended up getting a concussion, I'm pretty sure it was indeed a concussion because of all the symptoms. and I thought fuck it why even bother going to the doctor - and so I just kept living and going to work like that. at one point I was pretty sure I was going to die,I felt weaker and weaker every day, my head spun like crazy and I could barely stand. my arms and legs were shaking so much and I was constantly on the verge of fainting. even then I did nothing, I just hoped I'd faint and never wake up from that. I get how silly that sounds now, but I guess the concussion did something to alter my thought process, and I genuinely believed that. so while it wasn't a full-on suicide attempt - it was something like that?? I definitely thought I'd die.

this happened 2 weeks ago and since then the symptoms have gradually died down and I almost feel fine now. I want to tell my psych about that, but I'm afraid what if I will get admitted involuntarily. I am probably overthinking, sorry

I Think it really depends on how well you know your psych, in my experience they are often really reluctant to admit to hospitals and are generally aware of the fear patients have of them; but again it'll be different for everyone, if you feel like you can tell them while also asking not to be admitted and that they'll respect your wishes, I think it'd be good to let them know :)

 

[brokenhands]

just want to clarify; do you want to tell the psych about how bad the concussion got or you hoping it would kill you? telling them about the concussion itself is a good idea, esp if meds are involved. but also i think it can be useful to be honest with (good) mental health professionals but obviously being involuntarily committed is a concern. so long as you don't seem like an active threat to yourself you should be good, if you do want to avoid the mh. i hope your appointment goes well! sorry im not much help!!!

thank you, I think I will tell but have the "I don't want to do that right now though" to feel safer.

I just get treated in a big clinic where they most likely won't remember you unless you have been there for decades, even then it's rough. I came in for a check-up once and I got hit with "I've seen you somewhere I think, have we met here before?" not even kidding...

 

[brokenhands]

upd: I almost got sent, I literally begged for him not to send me there and he had pity on me

 

[Fadenself00_]

upd: I almost got sent, I literally begged for him not to send me there and he had pity on me

So he was nice? (Be very careful with shrinks - always )

 

[brokenhands]

So he was nice? (Be very careful with shrinks - always )

he was very professional at first saying how I must go, I am a danger to muself ectect, but when I genuinely started begging him - he agreed to let me go now, but if I do anything like that I'm still getting sent.
scared of the mh because I have never been to the adult one, was only in the childrens psych ward in a hospital. they got a whole hospital for the adults, I've heard mixed opinions, still would rather not go.

 

[SighCry]

he was very professional at first saying how I must go, I am a danger to muself ectect, but when I genuinely started begging him - he agreed to let me go now, but if I do anything like that I'm still getting sent.
scared of the mh because I have never been to the adult one, was only in the childrens psych ward in a hospital. they got a whole hospital for the adults, I've heard mixed opinions, still would rather not go.

I am sorry about your attempt and I think it's good you were honest with him but I think he should have sent you at least to ED for an evaluation.

 

[brokenhands]

I am sorry about your attempt and I think it's good you were honest with him but I think he should have sent you at least to ED for an evaluation.

thank you for reading this, and probably he should have, but I just kept insisting on no hospitals/ER at all, if I went there - I'd spend quite some time in there, or even go on a 24h hold, and I just wouldn't be able to explain this to my parents. I'm moving out soon, but I'm deathly afraid that they will find out that I'm visiting a psych again. don't want to delve too much into that or it will turn into a long vent, but all in all I coun't go anywhere without it turning into a whole shitshow later

 

[SighCry]

thank you for reading this, and probably he should have, but I just kept insisting on no hospitals/ER at all, if I went there - I'd spend quite some time in there, or even go on a 24h hold, and I just wouldn't be able to explain this to my parents. I'm moving out soon, but I'm deathly afraid that they will find out that I'm visiting a psych again. don't want to delve too much into that or it will turn into a long vent, but all in all I coun't go anywhere without it turning into a whole shitshow later

I understand, I hope you are okay and sorry you are in a situation where you can't share with your parents. Do you have a good relationship with your therapist like do you think he's doing a good job helping you?