Venting Will I Be Able to End My Misery?

[Daxter_87]

I'm so fucking slow that I can barely plan my exit. This morning it took me about an hour and a half to eat breakfast, half an hour more than usual (one hour). Yesterday I went to bed at 3.00am. I'm just so fucking sick of this misery, man. I wonder if one day I will be able to put an end to it. Hopefully, this afternoon/evening I'll be able to plan my method a bit, but there's no guarantee - I'm struggling with that too. Not meant to either live or die, just wait until some fucking bullshit kills me. No, sir, no fucking way, I can't wait any longer, but it's taking so much goddamn time I want to rip my skin off. The same debilitating bullshit that pushed me over the edge is keeping me from jumping off that edge. Awful shit, I hate this so fucking badly, and the fact that there's no euthanasia, assisted suicide, etc... is just the icing on the cake, a cake of shit with flies flying around it. Criminal, cruel, evil.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering, I certainly understand that it's torturous and dreadful feeling so trapped in this existence. I really despise how humans so cruelly make suicide so inaccessible, it truly is such an evil world where we cannot just have the option to easily die in peace.