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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
749
I've been researching for a few days now everywhere on the internet and this forum, most accounts are at least a year old, some are disheartening and some make me hopeful. Unfortunately my mental health is catastrophic despite having many friends, a job etc, I enjoy nothing in life and suffer immensely from it.
I'm planning to go on a trip to countries listed in the PPH, right now I am planning:

--Peru--
Arequipa
Ica

--Bolivia--
Santa Cruz
La paz

Cuzco or Lima seem like they won't be worth it as people have been turned away before.

I do speak Spanish, but not too well, so I will be a noticeable foreigner. Also I'm a rather short, frail girl, so I am a little bit worried about my safety in these countries, though I never went and don't know exactly how dangerous it is.

I understand that the chances of getting N are rather low, but still I need to try it, I don't really have other hopes at the moment.

I'll use this post to provide updates, will probably travel in June of this year. If I cancel I'll update.


If any of you have advice, testimonies, or are locals, I'm interested in anything
 
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dewdfish

dewdfish

SN on 03/30/2026
Nov 30, 2025
177
I'm sorry that you're going through all those things.
I live in South America, have visited the places you're going to and I'd say to be very careful, girl. I hope you end up finding it <3
 
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Willy Wonka

Willy Wonka

Experienced
Dec 15, 2021
209
good luck, looking forward to you keeping us updated! <3
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
632
Calling in someone who has some info about this,

@wyo777
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,134
Je fais des recherches depuis quelques jours sur internet et sur ce forum. La plupart des témoignages datent d'au moins un an ; certains sont décourageants, d'autres me redonnent espoir. Malheureusement, mon état mental est catastrophique malgré de nombreux amis, un travail, etc. Je ne prends aucun plaisir à la vie et j'en souffre énormément.
Je prévois de faire un voyage dans les pays figurant sur la liste du PPH ; pour l'instant, je planifie :

--Pérou--
Arequipa
Ica

--Bolivie--
Santa Cruz
La paix

Cuzco et Lima ne semblent pas valoir le coup, car des gens se sont déjà vu refuser l'entrée.

Je parle espagnol, mais pas très bien, donc je serai certainement une étrangère. De plus, je suis plutôt petite et fragile, ce qui m'inquiète un peu pour ma sécurité dans ces pays, même si je n'y suis jamais allée et que je ne sais pas exactement à quel point c'est dangereux.

Je comprends que les chances d'obtenir N sont plutôt faibles, mais je dois quand même essayer, je n'ai pas vraiment d'autres espoirs pour le moment.

J'utiliserai ce fil de discussion pour vous tenir au courant. Je prévois de voyager en juin prochain. En cas d'annulation, je vous informerai.


Si vous avez des conseils, des témoignages ou si vous êtes du coin, je suis intéressé par tout.
Soutien total de la France🇫🇷🇫🇷🇫🇷
I know you are french also
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
749
I'm sorry that you're going through all those things.
I live in South America, have visited the places you're going to and I'd say to be very careful, girl. I hope you end up finding it <3
You tell me I should be careful, about the N, or because I'm a girl?

Besides, it's good to know someone here is from South America. If you wanna join and help me, you can PM.
 
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IronMed

Member
Mar 2, 2025
30
South American here. You have a certain rationale to plan your trip, however, you will inadvertently end up ticking boxes that will put you in very dangerous situations, and very bad things can happen to you. It's not a safe idea. Things can take a number of bad turns for you, I would reconsider that plan if I was you.

It's like wanting to go to a warzone hoping to find a gun to use it as a suicide means.
 
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watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
749
South American here. You have a certain rationale to plan your trip, however, you will inadvertently end up ticking boxes that will put you in very dangerous situations, and very bad things can happen to you. It's not a safe idea. Things can take a number of bad turns for you, I would reconsider that plan if I was you.

It's like wanting to go to a warzone hoping to find a gun to use it as a suicide means.
I know that South America is dangerous, but do you have specific examples of the danger I'm exposing myself to? I'm not planning on messing with criminals or whatever. I just want to fly to Lima, take the bus to a few different cities, and ask the agrovets for N, no bribe or anything. I'll dress like shit obviously as I dont want people to look at me cuz I'm a girl. BUT I never went, and my spanish is a little sloppy. But I would like to know the specifics.
 
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wyo777

When life is a nightmare...
May 18, 2024
312
Calling in someone who has some info about this,

@wyo777
Thx, yes, i can help with accomodation, food etc in Peru. I can also give some advice.
 
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metfan647

Specialist
Jun 12, 2025
346
Do you have other motives for your travel? I mean, if you get hold of N, would you try to bring it back?
Bought the tickets! Will arrive in


You tell me I should be careful, about the N, or because I'm a girl?

Besides, it's good to know someone here is from South America. If you wanna join and help me, you can PM.

I'd delete that top line if I were you. There's a lot of details in this thread that can be pieced together. Just to be extra cautious.
 
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Unicr0n

Unicr0n

Stuck in a black hole...
Mar 26, 2024
263
I know that South America is dangerous, but do you have specific examples of the danger I'm exposing myself to? I'm not planning on messing with criminals or whatever. I just want to fly to Lima, take the bus to a few different cities, and ask the agrovets for N, no bribe or anything. I'll dress like shit obviously as I dont want people to look at me cuz I'm a girl
Dressing poorly is not enough, if you're conventionally attractive. Kidnapping/rape and being forced into sex trafficking is too much of a risk. Would recommend traveling with at least one other person if you're not like a 3/10 or lower. If you're ugly as fuck (truly ugly and not "I think I'm ugly uwu"), you're more likely to be left alone.
 
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metfan647

Specialist
Jun 12, 2025
346
Dressing poorly is not enough, if you're conventionally attractive. Kidnapping/rape and being forced into sex trafficking is too much of a risk. Would recommend traveling with at least one other person if you're not like a 3/10 or lower. If you're ugly as fuck (truly ugly and not "I think I'm ugly uwu"), you're more likely to be left alone.

I see you edited to downgrade from 4/10 to 3/10. They sure do cast a wide net.
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
749
Do you have other motives for your travel? I mean, if you get hold of N, would you try to bring it back?


I'd delete that top line if I were you. There's a lot of details in this thread that can be pieced together. Just to be extra cautious.
in that case delete the top line in the quote, too. I deleted it in my post.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,118
What in the weird wacky Indiana Jones adventure is that
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
749
What in the weird wacky Indiana Jones adventure is that
gotta go out with a bang I guess! (just kidding. but might as well have a nice trip and provide useful info rather than jump under a train near me and have my family have to identify my remains....)
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,118
gotta go out with a bang I guess! (just kidding. but might as well have a nice trip and provide useful info rather than jump under a train near me and have my family have to identify my remains....)
Aren't you french, can't you just like, start singing a solo song near a barricade of the revolution then get Gavroched ?
I assume France is under a constant state of révolution and you can easily just join in a Les Mis style face off against whatever La Grande Armée is now.
 
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dewdfish

dewdfish

SN on 03/30/2026
Nov 30, 2025
177
You tell me I should be careful, about the N, or because I'm a girl?

Besides, it's good to know someone here is from South America. If you wanna join and help me, you can PM.
Both! There's a lot of scammers out there, and if they suspect you're alone, it can be a bit dangerous
 
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Pony Slaystation

Member
Jul 28, 2018
97
That doesn't sound right. Peru and Bolivia are both pretty safe. i mean, no place in the world is totally safe of course. But the fear mongering in this thread is off the charts. Has anyone here actually been to Peru or Bolivia?
 
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DeadManLiving

DeadManLiving

Ticketholder
Sep 9, 2022
518
Going alone as a foreigner would be dangerous.

Argentina is another option.
 
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Pony Slaystation

Member
Jul 28, 2018
97
Going alone as a foreigner would be dangerous.

Argentina is another option.
Do you know how many tourists go to both of these places every year? A lot. And they all return home afterwards. This is nonsense.
 
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DeadManLiving

DeadManLiving

Ticketholder
Sep 9, 2022
518
Do you know how many tourists go to both of these places every year? A lot. And they all return home afterwards. This is nonsense.
Most return home. That doesn't mean all return home.
 
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mjolnir

The One Who Falls From the Sky
Nov 15, 2025
155
People here talk about South America as if it were irrational animals thirsty for foreign blood; obviously you should know how to behave, as you would anywhere in the world where you want to obtain something that is clearly not legal.
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
632
People here talk about South America as if it were irrational animals thirsty for foreign blood; obviously you should know how to behave, as you would anywhere in the world where you want to obtain something that is clearly not legal.
A friend of mine went to Brazil on a work trip and the company had an actual bodyguard assigned to him to and from the hotel whenever he went outside. Some foreigners do get kidnapped, apparently, according to them, and then they try to ransom them off back to the company. It's a PR nightmare for them.

Also, when he was going in the company car, the car actually stopped around 30 feet before the traffic signal at the intersection because that intersection was notorious for getting held up by criminals.

Also, there were chalk outlines everywhere.

OK, I was kidding about the last line.But everything else is true, I swear.
 
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ApparentlyNot

Nothing
Jul 8, 2023
183
Following this post. Really hope this works out for you. I wanted to do this also, but Im also a solo woman with very limited Spanish. Also, even if it is found and purchased, there is the issue of transporting it back to ones home country unless you were okay dying in SA on a timeline. Shipping it back is risky, but transporting it with you presents risk for serious charges in foreign countries. I'd do it and risk it if I thought it was at all possible.
 
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Nolongerlive

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Feb 28, 2026
31
N has somehow become the "holygrail" of all seekers. Everyone is searching for it but none of them managed to find one.

Finding one is one challenge,
bringing back to home country is another.
 
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froggirl9000

9,000,000 LIVE FROGS
Feb 4, 2023
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godspeed you, maximum headroom
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
164
I'm sorry that you're going through all those things.
I live in South America, have visited the places you're going to and I'd say to be very careful, girl. I hope you end up finding it <3
People who live in South America do you know if it can be found, where, how much, how hard is it to get? Older advocates of Philip Nitschke say they were able to go to Mexico and buy it for as little as 7 dollars and have it for when they need it. I've seen it said you can tell a vet in Mexico you need it for your dog and buy it, but wouldn't you need to give it to a pet by IV? I know an author wrote to Nitschke and she was able to have it sent to her. Then they made it hard to get and expensive. It's frustrating hearing all these people were told by Exit and Nitschke to buy it when it was cheap and easy so they wouldn't have to suffer. I wish I had known. Where are all the granny's and gramps stocked up on N? I bet they have plenty to share. Why did I have to start suffering after Jack Kevorkian? It used to be cheap and easy to end suffering. Now you can't buy or help, you can't get MAiD without a long expensive approval if you're able to do it when you have to be so close to death.They make it so hard to end suffering. You have to have money and be able to prove you are about to die. This is disgusting. What happened to compassion and mercy? The world was so much better not that long ago. Now food, meds, so much makes you sick, it's all about money. I'm old enough to see the horrible changes in the world but I was to young to know when to prepare. Anyone have relatives that had the meds or N or a doctor to call that did?
N has somehow become the "holygrail" of all seekers. Everyone is searching for it but none of them managed to find one.

Finding one is one challenge,
bringing back to home country is another.
Because I have read and heard how easy it was to get and painless and quick. Final Exit warned all their members to stock up before it was to late. How sick to take it away from people and make them suffer, put them in debt or wasting away in a home. You work to prepare for old age and lose everything when you're sick from the medication you can't afford or the polluted environment.
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
632
N has somehow become the "holygrail" of all seekers. Everyone is searching for it but none of them managed to find one.

Finding one is one challenge,
bringing back to home country is another.
There's no bringing it back home. The plan has to be consuming it in a hotel room locally.
 
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