ixkitty
Let me be Selfish, just this once.
- Aug 15, 2020
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So it's probably been a good 6-8 months. I've tried TMS from July-August, one treatment daily for 45 days. I missed maybe like 2 or 3 due to lack of sleep? (I work nights so I needed at least 4 hours.)
I'm not sure if I'd say I'm in a better place but.. I'm not constantly thinking I'm better off dead. I guess that's an improvement?
Also I'm a glutton for punishment and started nursing school.......... that's another story altogether.
I still have my exit in case things go south but I guess... right now nursing school gives me a little purpose? I'm not walking on an empty trail waiting for... something to finally take me out (be it myself or something else).
I'll be around. School is chaotic.
I'm not sure if I'd say I'm in a better place but.. I'm not constantly thinking I'm better off dead. I guess that's an improvement?
Also I'm a glutton for punishment and started nursing school.......... that's another story altogether.
I still have my exit in case things go south but I guess... right now nursing school gives me a little purpose? I'm not walking on an empty trail waiting for... something to finally take me out (be it myself or something else).
I'll be around. School is chaotic.
