Why would anyone not want to kill themselves?

[shampoo sniffer]

My parents must have lost that toolkit.

Lol same. I think many others here on the forum would agree too.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

It seems unfathomable to me that some people really don't wanna die, they wanna become 100 years old and more, they are trying everything to life, even if it's hard.


Are these people retarded?
Do I live on the same planet as them?
Are they on Crack or meth?
Like wtf is wrong with them, seems like we live in a different universe.

They piss me off acting like all of this here is fine and just normal everyday stuff, like wtf is wrong with them, this is the place before hell, it could only get worse here if we were on fire 24/7.

As quiet as it's kept, a lot of people on SaSu are just closet pro-lifers who actually envy the people who like it here. And it shows in what they write in their posts. They feel out of place in an insane asylum. They feel like their missing out on something. They're just mad that the dice haven't rolled their way, so they lash out by crying suicide or mental health, or something to get sympathy and attention from anyone who will halfway listen. I'm not judging them, despite what I just wrote, but I find that tragic and heartbreaking. It's sad to read the words of a seemingly beautiful, poetic soul (even if they don't know it) feel as if they're not enough for a failed, fucked up, mean world. That they're not a "normal" person, when the "normal" person on this planet is a fucking mess of countless pathologies and self-destructive addictions, at best.

I agree with you in all aspects. They don't piss me off, though. After a while, I guess I came to realize that demons like it in hell. The only ones complaining are the tormented souls. It amazes me that people can look around at the world dying (physically and figuratively) and want to continue to try and have a family and cope with it. In my belief, this universe is infinite, and this world is one of many. There are many more, and better, worlds and experiences to be had other than this one. This life is like the abusive guy who tells his woman that she's never going to find anyone else like him. That she has nowhere else to go but to him. It keeps souls here through lies and deceptions. That speaks volumes about the human world when one has to lie to themselves about the realities of it to make it seem beautiful and worth living.

I'm like you. I'll never understand how people strive to continue to live in this dying and deceptive shithole. Maybe fear. Perhaps stupidity. Both? I don't know.

 

[tpboy]

My bf's mother is 94. She is in pain a lot and is all hunched over with a walker. She can barely hear and has some dementia. She is so fucking happy it would blow your mind. She always wants to go clothes shopping for new outfits and just wants to be out in general around other people. She talks about living another 10 years! It's quite obvious to me that happiness levels are genetic. My Bf is a very happy person too as are his siblings.

My mother is 94. She has bad dementia. Jots of pain and has been in the bed for 6 months. She says she wants to die every day.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

My mother is 94. She has bad dementia. Jots of pain and has been in the bed for 6 months. She says she wants to die every day.

So horrible and inhumane. I'm so sorry.

 

[EmptyBottle]

For me... I somehow don't wish CTB, and probably won't wish it as strongly as I had in the past... probably because I learnt that the reasons behind it were not as scary as I thought they would be, and I managed to improve a bit.

Also, after making friends here, and seeing the impact of goodbye posts, I wouldn't want to hurt the friends here (nor even pet's emotions) by CTBing... unless something goes extremely south irl.

 

[Feldsparc]

For most people, life is good or neutral most of the time. That's how life should be. In general, the moment enough things turn negative, all these "normal" people quickly spiral downwards. They can do this more rapidly and brutally then people who've been suffering for a long time, since people who've been dealing with shit for decades got good at dealing with shit.

I feel like i was a normie.... living my best life but not knowing it. Until a terrible series of mistakes. Falling in love with a family member and having an affair. Then i found out we both have bpd...we got into a trauma bond and couldn't leave each other... destroyed my family that I was so happy with a short while ago. No one understands how it happened...neither do I. I changed from being a normie and having a great life to being actively suicidal

 

[Feldsparc]

Its strange how something bad that happens to you can take over your entire life and identity. I'm already 40 but what happened in these past 2 years has eclipsed my whole life

 

[HopelessScientist]

I get what you mean, I had depression for 19 years. I want to say that for some people, life doesn't feel like a constant chore, things aren't as hard for normies as they are for us. I am still mildly depressed but I can go for a run everyday and somewhat take care of myself.

Now that I am on antidepressants, I don't want to live per se, but I don't want to die anymore because I care about those close to me. I also want to help others in the future whether through adoption, through my research, through just being someone's friend, volunteer work.

I hate that I was born, but since I was born, I feel responsible for leaving the world a slightly better place than when I came.

 

[Spite]

There's plenty of reasons why people would not want to kill themselves. Lots of people enjoy life and hardly see anything bad about it. Those who are most likely to not want to kill themselves are likely enjoying life through means of close friendships, meaningful relationships, a loving family, academic success and workplace satisfaction. Other things can factor into not wanting to suicide too like good health both physical and mental, religion, the desire to raise children, hope and prosperity etc.

But I understand the question at face value, "why would anyone not want to kill themselves?". Life is a fucking absurd, cruel joke and I ponder the same - how so many people don't seem to be able to fathom nor care about how fucked up this life truly is. I think it's just a case of most people simply never get to that point where suicide starts to become a viable option in their minds.