Discussion Why wake up?

[Jeckob]

Hello everyone, this is my first post and I wanted to share with you one of the main thoughts that affect my day: what's the point of waking up and living life?

I am constantly looking for a purpose, something that is worth continuing, something that pushes me to move on and every day before going to sleep and in the morning when I wake up it seems more and more meaningless.

Do you feel that way too?

 

[Andross01]

Yes. It is meaningless. All of it.

 

[Rounded Agony]

Basically every day. Every once in a while I find something that fulfills that sense of purpose for a little while, but it either inevitably fades, or some fucking thing gets in the way of me being able to continue/enjoying it.

Every night I keep wishing that I won't wake up, but it keeps on happening. Unfortunately.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Absolutely. Shortly after I wake each day, my first thought is- 'Oh no, I'm still here.'

 

[veryhappyhuman]

Welcome to SS @Jeckob . Sorry that you feel life's meaningless and ended up here.

I definitely agree with that sentiment. But I've completely given up looking for meaning or something to live for though. If you haven't, and still have a sliver of attachment to life, maybe the Recovery forum is a better place than here. There's more positivity in there. I wish you the best either way.

 

[Γyuk]

Absolutely. Shortly after I wake each day, my first thought is- 'Oh no, I'm still here.'

I have exactly the same

 

[ATM]

For me it's just not worth the effort. I get a crap sinking feeling every time I wake up.

 

[atonofdespair24]

I feel like this a lot. But usually I can take a moment, and think of one thing I can keep going for.

Although, it's easy to dismiss whatever that thing is for you and just say 'It won't matter in the end'. I think this is right, and it just depends on how you look at it. You can look at it as something that might give you joy in the future or on a somewhat consistent basis or something that isn't worth the amount of effort or energy giving it. I think it has to be a thing you can give yourself, so maybe something tangible. Not something you get from others, because we know how that goes. Sadly love makes that list.

For me that is my car, I like going to racetracks and competing in events. Sometimes I see it as all the effort, energy, time and money is agonizing but the feeling I get when I drive it is only a feeling I can get from that car, that specific one. It's mine, no ones taking it, and I can use it whenever I want. Most of time I tell myself, yes, this is the one thing I have that won't hurt me. It's worth it. It doesn't even have a real heartbeat lol, but it makes me feel more alive then anything on this bleak planet.

I agree with you though, a lot of the time I'm usually team 'fuck the world'.

 

[foreverfalling]

When I wake up I don't look forward to another day of work, stress, worrying what other people think, their judgements, my own trauma, anxiety about the future, eating, brushing teeth, cleaning, chores...

There is no point to it all.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I used to have some meaning… Friends, my girlfriend, creative projects… I lost a lot of money and the girlfriend left… Now it's just survival and the pleasures of life are out of reach … wish they were an easy way to unplug

 

[PeacefulDreams]

Somewhere along the line I woke up for no reason at all and at another point down the line it all came down to how long I needed to plan. Scattered in between was too many excuses to not lay in bed like a lifeless rock for the whole day.

 

[drmihilo]

The world is an arena of suffering conditioned by biological life. Consequently, every day I wake up to avoid making this world even worse... It never succeeds. The world is too unstable and full of temptation to hold a neutral position. And it gives me a wild sense of despair. It is possible to die freely (thankfully, there are methods available), but the consequences are very well known to me: the pain of loss... An alternative life might do well only for me, but not for those who love me.

Forgive my perhaps excessive pessimism... But that's how I see it.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

If you're looking for a purpose, you aren't going to get it from asking here. (Almost) all of us realize the same thing, that our lives are meaningless under their current set of circumstances. You might find the random pro-lifer on here that will try to convince you there is a purpose, but they don't see it from our pov.

 

[Astral Storm]

I just want to sleep forever and leave this world.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Feed the cats. Talk to important people on here.

Besides that I don't really have a reason.

 

[drmihilo]

And I really love books and music. Those are the only things that keep me here, I guess. They help me relax. Maybe that's what life is all about: the little things?

 

[Klophy]

I wake up everyday now in a panic, wishing I would've gone through with it before.

All I look forward to is (day)dreaming, it's not enough to stick around. Passing away in my sleep would be ideal.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is no point or purpose to being alive. The idea that life has any meaning is a delusion and if someone says that life is meaningful then they are in denial of the true pointless nature of existence. I think that people try to search for meanings in life as they cannot bring themselves to accept that they exist for no reason and that there could never be a reason for any of this. I think that wanting suicide is the rational response for seeing life for what it really is. Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, we only exist because people decided to selfishly procreate.

There is no reason or need for life to be a thing in the first place, existence is completely unnecessary. I know that there is absolutely no point to me being here and to die would be the best thing possible. I see no reason to suffer and struggle when instead I could be peacefully not existing. I am only still here as of course leaving this world is not easy, and I can imagine that is why most people continue to endure this existence.

 

[sewercide]

Waking up realizing, I was at peace when I was sleeping, only to be woken up with dread that I'm still stuck in my body. Non existence must be the ultimate peace, I want the big sleep by "N"

 

[rationaltake]

I agree with the existentialists that each person has to find their own point. Existential psychotherapy deals with the ideas of death - freedom - isolation - meaninglessness. I never had this kind of therapy but would have liked it in the past.

There are things that would be reasons for me to live but these very things are invalidated by certain issues which I can never accept and which will never be solved.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I think that wanting suicide is the rational response for seeing life for what it really is.

I think suicide is more a function of silenced reward paths. There's plenty of philosopher types who see the pointlessness but still enjoy the time they have if they're firing on enough cylinders.

 

[drmihilo]

There is no point or purpose to being alive. The idea that life has any meaning is a delusion and if someone says that life is meaningful then they are in denial of the true pointless nature of existence. I think that people try to search for meanings in life as they cannot bring themselves to accept that they exist for no reason and that there could never be a reason for any of this. I think that wanting suicide is the rational response for seeing life for what it really is. Life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, we only exist because people decided to selfishly procreate.

There is no reason or need for life to be a thing in the first place, existence is completely unnecessary. I know that there is absolutely no point to me being here and to die would be the best thing possible. I see no reason to suffer and struggle when instead I could be peacefully not existing. I am only still here as of course leaving this world is not easy, and I can imagine that is why most people continue to endure this existence.

I agree. Pointlessness is always painful.
However, even a meaningful life seems horrible to me, because it absolutes suffering and makes slaves of us, without any hope of liberation. Meaningfulness does not exclude pain...

 

[Hollowillow]

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Hello everyone, this is my first post and I wanted to share with you one of the main thoughts that affect my day: what's the point of waking up and living life?

I am constantly looking for a purpose, something that is worth continuing, something that pushes me to move on and every day before going to sleep and in the morning when I wake up it seems more and more meaningless.

Do you feel that way too?

Yes. I'm sick & when I pass out for 48h, with painless dreams, it's awesome. But waking up is a reflex like breathing. Dolphins need to breathe on purpose... They can stop at will. Must be nice

 

[Finding Sirius]

I agree. Pointlessness is always painful.
However, even a meaningful life seems horrible to me, because it absolutes suffering and makes slaves of us, without any hope of liberation. Meaningfulness does not exclude pain...

Agreed, I had on of those meaningful lives. Yes, it did indeed make a slave out of me as I ran in the rat race. Now after losing the one thing I truly wanted, I realize how pointless it was. It's a sick joke.

 

[cneoien]

i don't care about being pointless. i just wish it wasnt so painful

 

[The Abyss]

The only time I'm not in pain is when I'm sleeping (arm problem, mainly wrist & forearm).

 

[MrP]

Hello everyone, this is my first post and I wanted to share with you one of the main thoughts that affect my day: what's the point of waking up and living life?

I am constantly looking for a purpose, something that is worth continuing, something that pushes me to move on and every day before going to sleep and in the morning when I wake up it seems more and more meaningless.

Do you feel that way too?

That is my current thought process down to a T. I quit drinking 23 months ago and moved back in with my mum. I'm tempted just to say 'fuck it' and have a drink because it's not really worth being sober, for me anyway.