Venting Why it is so difficult to ctb

[endless_pain]

I swear if there would be a button I would ctb now, not tomorrow.
I hate the fact that I have to plan everything in order to do it.
Deep inside this is just what I want but in this world you don't have a possibility to leave easily.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Just think of it as an adventure. Your last one.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I guess it really is a kind of adventure. I hope noone will stop me or find out once I start sourcing the SN.
SN sounds so peaceful its dreamlike

 

[SilentSadness]

It's difficult to ctb because the delusions of pro-lifers outweigh all common sense. They would much rather people were tortured and abused in psych wards than given the option to kill themselves, in fact the idea that suicide could be anything but negative is unthinkable to a pro-lifer. I also wish only to die and have wanted this for many years. Sadly, I still don't have a method and probably won't for many years to come. I know how you feel and it's terrible to be forced to stay here, especially when the people who claim to care are horrible people to be avoided. And I don't see it as an adventure, for me it's a terrible tragedy to be here that's filled with suffering beyond imagination. I hope your situation improves for you, and that you get what you truly wish for.

 

[endless_pain]

especially when the people who claim to care are horrible people to be avoided

You got me saying this, it's so sad to realize how cruel it is.
Thank you for understanding

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult in this world and I despise this fact. To me it's inhumane how humans are denied a peaceful and guaranteed way to exit as without that then existence is nothing more than a cruel prison where we are all being punished simply because of the selfish and unnecessary decision of other people to procreate.

I certainly see suicide as being self care as it solves all problems and removes all future suffering and harm, but the tragedy lies in the fact how suicide is barely an option in the first place. I'm also tired of being trapped here, it certainly should be easier for us to cease existing with this existence finally being forgotten about. Just because some delusional people lack the awareness to recognise that existing is harmful and futile doesn't mean that everybody should be forced to suffer endlessly until they decay from old age.

 

[riddlerenjoyer]

I don't understand why we're forced to live and aren't able to choose to die just because other people see life as "good". Not everyone wants to go on and its so unfair people think they know better than us

 

[endless_pain]

I don't understand why we're forced to live and aren't able to choose to die just because other people see life as "good". Not everyone wants to go on and its so unfair people think they know better than us

Especially when coming from toxic background with past traumas and missing support system. Everything to repair and build from scratch plus your parents as enemies and obstacles that want you subtly fragile

 

[Arachno]

The closest thing to a ctb button is a gun, sucks that it's so hard to get :(

 

[Toy]

It's unfair that we, as humans, do not even have the free will for an easy way out of our suffering. The easier methods of suicide are being removed and is becoming increasingly more difficult to obtain. If there was a CTB button, I would instantly press it. Society makes it unnecessarily difficult and with them banning the easier ways out, more of us are gonna have to turn to more extreme, unpeaceful, and painful ways to finally get relief. Humans today are forcing others to continue living against their wills. We do not have a free choice in society regardless of what lies others say. Others always think they know whether someone's suffering will end or not. Humanity is selfish.

 

[endless_pain]

It's unfair that we, as humans, do not even have the free will for an easy way out of our suffering. The easier methods of suicide are being removed and is becoming increasingly more difficult to obtain. If there was a CTB button, I would instantly press it. Society makes it unnecessarily difficult and with them banning the easier ways out, more of us are gonna have to turn to more extreme, unpeaceful, and painful ways to finally get relief. Humans today are forcing others to continue living against their wills. We do not have a free choice in society regardless of what lies others say. Others always think they know whether someone's suffering will end or not. Humanity is selfish.

Yeah and more painful methods terrify me, it's just more sufference added to the already present one