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SoCloseSoFar

SoCloseSoFar

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May 21, 2026
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I just wish there was a bloodless and painless way to go to bed and never wake up again. I fucking hate how much our society prevents you from being hurt enough to kill you. Whatever happened to the pursuit of unhappiness? What if I want to just die? I seriously don't understand why we can't do that.(Or we can, it's just frowned upon and seen as "cowardly" I'd argue it's the exact opposite of cowardice because the amount of fortitude and strength it takes to take the leap and kill yourself is GENUINELY incredible and I do not have the strength yet)
 
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WallTermite

WallTermite

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Aug 16, 2025
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Survival instinct is a problem here. Even painless methods are hard to pull off.

My perfect method would be cardiac arrest, basically the heart just stops. However very few drugs can do that, at least the ones available to public.

I would let someone shoot me in the head repeatedly, I don't care whatever they steal from me. Just kill me.
 
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SoCloseSoFar

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May 21, 2026
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Survival instinct is a problem here. Even painless methods are hard to pull off.

My perfect method would be cardiac arrest, basically the heart just stops. However very few drugs can do that, at least the ones available to public.

I would let someone shoot me in the head repeatedly, I don't care whatever they steal from me. Just kill me.
I wouldn't really care either at that point. With multiple bullets in my head, my material possessions would be the least of my worries
 
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Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
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Because human society is built on a foundation of lies brainwashing and gaslighting from the moment we are all born. If they let people leave easily, then these lies will very quickly start to unravel. They will essentially have to admit that this life is an imposition and that we have no obligation to take part or even value any of it. How would you even get people to work all of the crappy soul destroying jobs and all of the other annoying things we're forced to do on a daily basis, if everyone could just choose to leave at a moment's notice?

The fact that most people are stuck here and forced to pay to just merely exist, and we know how horrible our lives can get if we fail to keep running on that hamster wheel... it's easy to keep dangling that carrot in front of the masses and not only will they comply, but they will actively help to keep others around them trapped here with them. It's not even the authorities who are maintaining the walls and bars of this prison we live in, it's actually all the other terrified sheep who are too scared to stop playing the game. Peer pressure on monumental scale is what keeps all of this going indefinitely. And we will never be free as individuals, while this peer pressure dynamic is running the game. We will always be prisoners to what the majority sees as valuable/important. Individuals leaving, is seen as a challenge to that orthodoxy. It's not universally recognised merely as an individual choice, but a threat to the entire fabric of how society functions and what keeps the whole thing from collapsing on top of itself.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Because we're an interconnected, selfish species. Parents don't usually want to experience the pain of their children dying before them. Other family members and friends don't want to be abandoned. Our governments/ societies need enough people alive and paying taxes- either through working or consuming products.

They would also presumsbly need strict regulation if assisted suicide was legalised and- that's a minefield for everyone to agree on. The religious faction may argue that no one should die before their 'natural' time. The more pro- life perspectives will insist that all problems have a solution so- suicide isn't necessary. Even those with a more pro- choice stance may have ideas on whether minors can make such a decision for themselves. It would be so difficult to get everyone to agree. And- they can't just unregulate controlled lethal drugs say without all sorts of people getting hold of them.

Put it this way- do you feel able to tell all of your friends and family you want to suicide? Do you think they'll accept your decision? I imagine not all of them will. In fact, I imagine a lot of people here are trying to keep their ideation a secret. But- multiply that resistence by several million people and- it's not really surprising it's prohibited. It's not like our governments are preventing something even the majority wants. I imagine it's only the minority that support assisted suicide and even then- probably only for a tiny demographic of people.

Even parents who agree that their own ailing and ill parents should be able to choose to leave peacefully and with dignity may not be so supportive of their eighteen year old child also being given the option to go.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I really understand, it's just so terrible and cruel how we exist in this horrific world where humans have made dying painlessly into a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

All I want is to be permanently free from this torturous existence of dreadful suffering and I just always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence that never should had been imposed at all. To me anti-suicide is evil, all that these people want is to make it so others are tortured in this terrible, cruel existence for as much and as long as possible, existence to me will just always be a mistake, all I want is for this existence to be all erased for me, no matter what the peace of non-existence is all I could see as positive.
 
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trashhologram

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Dec 15, 2023
531
I would let someone shoot me in the head repeatedly, I don't care whatever they steal from me. Just kill me.
I think this way too. Unfortunately guns aren't very common here. But I wouldn't mind if someone stabbed me to death. Thankfully being an addict and a sex worker put me in sketchy situations sometimes. Nothing too violent so far, just a dude who tried to strangle me and literally grabbed half my face. Fucking weirdo.

Almost every night I hope I would just die. I've been abusing my body for decades so a massive heart attack could be possible. Slim possibility doesn't mean impossible.
 

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