No, I don't want to know by chance I just want to know the truth I think it isn't the first time I wrote this before on this website but before I go to the psych evaluation meeting or eviction meeting I just want to know the truth how many times did I attempt suicide did I really shoot myself in the head with a .44 magnum and all of that I just want to know did I actually get married and whether I am better off alive or better off dead and personally I don't believe suicide as sin that's is just me I understand why some people kill themselves to get rid of the pain and suffering and to go to hell more pain and suffering just to end their own pain and suffering I don't agree with that concept of "carnal sin" I think some people need to understand why some kill themselves I only attempted suicide multiple times and currently have no interest in doing it one more time unless it is necessary
And funny thing is I felt like I have read those words before deja vu or precognition or based off of repeat data storage or having someone type the same words like I have on here interesting.
The thing about people saying suicide is the biggest sin you can commit, nowhere in the bible does it say, "Thou shall not commit suicide."
I have people constantly telling me I will go straight to hell for doing so.
Hell doesn't exist, but if it does, I will gladly go. Any god who makes people suffer the way this so called god does, is not one I would want to spend eternity with.