Method Why is killing yourself so hard?

[tired994]

I'm new here, and I'm researching methods and it's all either SN or about 50 drugs…I don't even know how I'll get the drugs and I'm so tired I don't have energy to try get 100 and 1 drugs on the darknet. I just want to take one or two pills and sleep away

 

[LostHighway]

I'm new here, and I'm researching methods and it's all either SN or about 50 drugs…I don't even know how I'll get the drugs and I'm so tired I don't have energy to try get 100 and 1 drugs on the darknet. I just want to take one or two pills and sleep away

That's why I want to take Fentanyl. Just a little and it's a painless, peaceful death. But procuring it is difficult if you don't know how to find it on the street. I'm in San Francisco for a week, and don't know how to approach people. The ones that look like they're hooked on it are too wasted to even know what's going on. Anyway, I get where you're coming from. Nitrogen would be a peaceful way to go but the learning curve of getting the tank and the other parts is too steep for my exhausted brain to figure out. If I only had the courage to jump off a bridge.

 

[dolliewilting]

im trying to figure it out too but I'm afraid. i could maybe access a gun if i really wanted to but it would be so ugly and gross and I just don't want to be found that way.

That's why I want to take Fentanyl. Just a little and it's a painless, peaceful death. But procuring it is difficult if you don't know how to find it on the street. I'm in San Francisco for a week, and don't know how to approach people. The ones that look like they're hooked on it are too wasted to even know what's going on. Anyway, I get where you're coming from. Nitrogen would be a peaceful way to go but the learning curve of getting the tank and the other parts is too steep for my exhausted brain to figure out. If I only had the courage to jump off a bridge.

hi you ! if you're willing to , could we maybe chat about it more in private ? I've been thinking about those same things , and I'd really like to discuss it with somebody

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand as all I want is the peace of non-existence, all I want is to fall asleep permanently and never suffer in this terrible, torturous existence ever again, I see so much terrible cruelty in how dying peacefully is made inaccessible, I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to cease existing in peace, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[itsgone2]

It's been said so many times but Nembutal, or some other peaceful method, should absolutely be available.

 

[Mental666]

This is the reason why I think that hanging would be the best method for me. It's very simple. You just need rope, anchor point and some basic knowledge. I also live around 500m from the forest so I have perfect opportunity to do it there but currently I am giving myself some time to gain a courage and make sure that nothing change in the future :/

 

[leowantstobedead]

That's why I want to take Fentanyl. Just a little and it's a painless, peaceful death. But procuring it is difficult if you don't know how to find it on the street. I'm in San Francisco for a week, and don't know how to approach people. The ones that look like they're hooked on it are too wasted to even know what's going on. Anyway, I get where you're coming from. Nitrogen would be a peaceful way to go but the learning curve of getting the tank and the other parts is too steep for my exhausted brain to figure out. If I only had the courage to jump off a bridge.

Yeah, idk how to get a drug like that. But I rlly wish I did. Bc I feel an overdose would be my 1st choice, u've tried iverdose 3 times before but just on a pain med and dxm

 

[LostHighway]

Yeah, idk how to get a drug like that. But I rlly wish I did. Bc I feel an overdose would be my 1st choice, u've tried iverdose 3 times before but just on a pain med and dxm

only a few drugs can give you a peaceful death. i just learned about ingesting bitter almonds, which is like taking cyanide, but it's NOT a peaceful way to go. if i only knew how to approach people on the street in san francisco, i'm pretty confident i could get some fentanyl. i just came home from visiting san francisco. while i was there i saw some sketchy looking guys. i got up the courage, walked up to them and asked if they knew how to score fentanyl! one of the guys said his little brother and several friends died of a fentanyl overdose. he told me to get clean. then the bus came and picked them up. (i thought they were hanging out on the street but they were just waiting for the bus.) as they got on the bus, the one guy said, "i'm praying for you sister!" i wanted to cry out, "i'm not a drug addict. i want to kill myself!" but i thought the better of it...

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

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[AndyXD6060]

im trying to figure it out too but I'm afraid. i could maybe access a gun if i really wanted to but it would be so ugly and gross and I just don't want to be found that way.

hi you ! if you're willing to , could we maybe chat about it more in private ? I've been thinking about those same things , and I'd really like to discuss it with somebody

hey yeah we can too please do I will wait for u

 

[Deathforliberation]

I'm new here, and I'm researching methods and it's all either SN or about 50 drugs…I don't even know how I'll get the drugs and I'm so tired I don't have energy to try get 100 and 1 drugs on the darknet. I just want to take one or two pills and sleep away

I feel the same way. Ive basically tried a "non method" (cutting) a number of times before realising it doesnt get me anywhere. I mean its literally impossible to die that way. But all the stuff with the drugs seems so overwhelming and I'm scared of doing a mistake. I'm also too scared of jumping down a high building. Every method kinda seems frightening. Not so much the outcome, but the process.

 

[hdead]

I feel the same way. Ive basically tried a "non method" (cutting) a number of times before realising it doesnt get me anywhere. I mean its literally impossible to die that way. But all the stuff with the drugs seems so overwhelming and I'm scared of doing a mistake. I'm also too scared of jumping down a high building. Every method kinda seems frightening. Not so much the outcome, but the process.

While there are more scary and less scary ways to go, I would reason that dying in every respect is a pretty scary thing. We all imagine just taking a pill and going to sleep - and that would be loads easier than jumping in front of a train, it's still a pretty scary thing to be doing..

 

[Ultimatefighter]

SN is rated 6/10 on peacefullness

 

[Deathforliberation]

While there are more scary and less scary ways to go, I would reason that dying in every respect is a pretty scary thing. We all imagine just taking a pill and going to sleep - and that would be loads easier than jumping in front of a train, it's still a pretty scary thing to be doing..

While there are more scary and less scary ways to go, I would reason that dying in every respect is a pretty scary thing. We all imagine just taking a pill and going to sleep - and that would be loads easier than jumping in front of a train, it's still a pretty scary thing to be doing..
Yeah also I sometimes find it crazy that my failed attempts had zero consequences. Like if i succeeded I would just be gone forever and now that I haven't life just goes on as if nothing happened and no one cares... Obviously failing other methods than cutting can have major consequences but this is a special case. My only consequences are visible cuts on my forearm that i can hide by wearing something over it even if its way too hot.

 

[hdead]

Yeah also I sometimes find it crazy that my failed attempts had zero consequences. Like if i succeeded I would just be gone forever and now that I haven't life just goes on as if nothing happened and no one cares... Obviously failing other methods than cutting can have major consequences but this is a special case. My only consequences are visible cuts on my forearm that i can hide by wearing something over it even if its way too hot.

That must be a rough time to go through, I'm sorry to hear that man. I'm not in the camp of attemptees, but I have spoken a lot on the subjects with friends and family. It is a strange and lonely place to be in because I was already more or less left in the dust by most of them, but now they seem to have all these great pieces of advice to help me live. Like, sorry? Where were you when I literally begged for your attention and care? Where were you when I needed you to be a little patient and understanding with me? And now my life is quite literally on the line and all you can do is cry and be sad and try to keep me around? I just don't understand. Sorry for ranting out of place. It just came out.

 

[Endstati0n]

After years of researching methods i decided on the following: (you said you just want to take a single drug. That is not recommendet, better to use every possibility to increase your chances of Oding)

1. Strong Heroin #4 from drug hub. Atleast 5 grams (vendor should be in your country, for less risk)
2. Kratom (legal in alot of countries and increases Opiod effectiveness)
3. Benzos (increase Opioid effectiveness)
4. Alcohol (increases Opioid effectiveness)
5. Ketamin (increases opioid effectiveness)
6. Anti metic medication to combat puking
7. Grape fruit juice (increases opioid effectiveness)

You can buy everything on the drub hub. It's not that complicated.

All these drugs combined should give you a very reliable peacful death.

Also it's necesseray that you are opioid naive for less risk of failing.

 

[Deathforliberation]

That must be a rough time to go through, I'm sorry to hear that man. I'm not in the camp of attemptees, but I have spoken a lot on the subjects with friends and family. It is a strange and lonely place to be in because I was already more or less left in the dust by most of them, but now they seem to have all these great pieces of advice to help me live. Like, sorry? Where were you when I literally begged for your attention and care? Where were you when I needed you to be a little patient and understanding with me? And now my life is quite literally on the line and all you can do is cry and be sad and try to keep me around? I just don't understand. Sorry for ranting out of place. It just came out.

I totally get that. When you tell them you're suicidal suddenly everyone cares but apart from that no one would ever be interested if you're not feeling well. Its just about keeping you alive, but for what exactly. Its suicide=bad and thats why they care. I hope there is at least some person in your life that cares more about you than that.

 

[hdead]

I totally get that. When you tell them you're suicidal suddenly everyone cares but apart from that no one would ever be interested if you're not feeling well. Its just about keeping you alive, but for what exactly. Its suicide=bad and thats why they care. I hope there is at least some person in your life that cares more about you than that.

It sucks that it is like that, isn't it. Strange as it is, I've met so many caring souls through hanging around on this forum and it's given me more shimmers of hope to making it through this than IRL. I wish some news-outlets would see that rather than this site being about pushing people to CTB. It's messed up.

After years of researching methods i decided on the following: (you said you just want to take a single drug. That is not recommendet, better to use every possibility to increase your chances of Oding)

1. Strong Heroin #4 from drug hub. Atleast 5 grams (vendor should be in your country, for less risk)
2. Kratom (legal in alot of countries and increases Opiod effectiveness)
3. Benzos (increase Opioid effectiveness)
4. Alcohol (increases Opioid effectiveness)
5. Ketamin (increases opioid effectiveness)
6. Anti metic medication to combat puking
7. Grape fruit juice (increases opioid effectiveness)

You can buy everything on the drub hub. It's not that complicated.

All these drugs combined should give you a very reliable peacful death.

Also it's necesseray that you are opioid naive for less risk of failing.

5 grams of heroin?! How are you planning on getting that in? Seems like a LOT.

Also, how did you come to the conclusion that ketamine potentiates an opiate?

 

[leowantstobedead]

I feel the same way. Ive basically tried a "non method" (cutting) a number of times before realising it doesnt get me anywhere. I mean its literally impossible to die that way. But all the stuff with the drugs seems so overwhelming and I'm scared of doing a mistake. I'm also too scared of jumping down a high building. Every method kinda seems frightening. Not so much the outcome, but the process.

I feel that completely. I just want smth that will let me leave peacefully

 

[plskilme]

Why is it so hard? Probably because our fucking cave man survival instincts kick in and are like stay alive at all costs...

 

[leowantstobedead]

Yeah, it's sad

 

[DeathJester]

I'm not afraid of a painful death, or just death itself, but the people I am connected to. Like not personally, but I don't want the consequences of my actions to destroy my family or lead similarly-minded friends on a equally fatal path.

I like to think that you never just kill yourself. It sucks alot of life out of the people around you, if you care about them or not.

 

[Deathforliberation]

Why is it so hard? Probably because our fucking cave man survival instincts kick in and are like stay alive at all costs...

I swear I've always felt like SI is holding me as a hostage. It's like slavery in a way.

I feel that completely. I just want smth that will let me leave peacefully

Sadly I don't think any method like that exists. I guess we just have to get all our courage up at some point and fight our SI and fear with everything we can to overcome it one way or the other.

 

[Argent]

I mean the body resists it because it's evolved not to. Legally it becomes a dicey area too, so it becomes difficult to make happen that way.

I'm cynical and also think that our laws around suicide have something to do with ensuring that we keep economic productivity going so the top 1% can do whatever they want.