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forgivemegod

I have a chronic disease
Jun 26, 2025
31
I no longer have any hope of getting better, but I feel like I'm stuck in this existence because CTB is so fucking hard :(
I think I will just move to another city and live in the streets and hope I die thsre
 
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kitkat9234

Experienced
Nov 27, 2024
293
I feel the same. Like I'm trapped. Too scared that I will fail again to try and not able to deal with this miserable life. I hate that it's so hard.
 
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Agon321

Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,625
I think I've come to terms with the fact that I can't handle CTB.
The only chance is that the world will force me against a wall and CTB will be the only solution, or the world will simply kill me somehow.
At this point, I'm just waiting, I don't know what the fuck for.
 
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forgivemegod

I have a chronic disease
Jun 26, 2025
31
I'm paralyzed trying to think of an accessible and peaceful method, but even SN, which people talk about as if it were the most peaceful, scares me.
 
ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
11
Being able to choose when you wouldn't wake up ever again from your sleep is the dream
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,993
I understand, I also feel trapped in this cruel existence, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently, I wish you the best.
 

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