Levia@than
They/Them
- Dec 20, 2023
- 23
Recently it feels like I've hit rock bottom. I've never wanted to kill myself more, but I can't. I have friends who love and support me and a partner who means the fucking world to me. I don't want to leave them behind because I know it would make their lives worse. I've always been a people pleaser. I have put myself through some horrible shit to see people smile. I can't kill myself knowing that people will cry over me. I'm so grateful for them but sometimes I just wish no one cared about me so I can end it all. There are so many nights where I just curl up in bed and cry, wishing I could kill myself but not being able to. This has lead to a spike in my self harming and I feel like my mental health is spiraling. I don't know what to do. Honestly I'm scared that one day I'll snap and everyone I cate about will be left devastated.