DefinitelyReady
Desperate to go--
- Mar 14, 2024
- 238
I live in the US. 32/F. I guarantee I am the biggest loser on this site. The most worthless. Since I don't have money or resources, or live next to a train or high buildings, I am just so stuck. Why is it so difficult to CTB? I can't inflict my own pain. I really want to be an organ donor. It's the least I can do. I have no means? I had a brief moment to pull the trigger 10yrs ago, and I did, but my dumbass didn't know how to turn off the safety lock and I didn't want my sister/brother-in-law to know that I touched it and I had to put it back. So I'm not afraid of the actual act. I just don't want it to be botched and give me liver/kidney and cognitive issues etc. Im not a chemist and am afraid I'll eff up wasting what little money I could sponge up to make a gas. It shouldn't be this difficult. We fight for the right to be born into this world, but we have not rights to easily and peacefully leave it should we want to? I've wanted to die since I was a child... Who else is just, stuck here???