BRBRB
Member
- Sep 15, 2020
- 13
this year has by far been the worst for me.
I had a nervous breakdown and manic episode that caused me to lose my job with the help of my so callled bestfriend having the company fire me. I really wanted to kill her but instead I've been having SI because instead of blaming her I'm blaming my own mental health & breakdowns. I had to drive across country and move back in with my family which makes me feel even worse, some people in my family have treated me like complete shit. I'm sharing a room with my little cousin and sleeping in a bunk bed, I guess it's better than being 100% homeless but im basically 90% if it wasnt for my aunt. I tried to tell my family about my SI but they just think I'm being dramatic
I lost everything this year, my amazing job, my best friends, and myself. I feel like CTB is my only way to stop the bullshit I'm going through. My birthday is in 5days and I planned to figure out my methods and go for it. but the guilt of leaving my mom the pain im in is enough to try to stop me. I wish I had people in my real life that understood. this is the worst point of my life and I just don't want to be here anymore and I wish suicide wasn't so taboo in the eyes of people who are in my life. I don't want to feel bad for wanting to die but my life just sucks & I don't see a way things will get better
I had a nervous breakdown and manic episode that caused me to lose my job with the help of my so callled bestfriend having the company fire me. I really wanted to kill her but instead I've been having SI because instead of blaming her I'm blaming my own mental health & breakdowns. I had to drive across country and move back in with my family which makes me feel even worse, some people in my family have treated me like complete shit. I'm sharing a room with my little cousin and sleeping in a bunk bed, I guess it's better than being 100% homeless but im basically 90% if it wasnt for my aunt. I tried to tell my family about my SI but they just think I'm being dramatic
I lost everything this year, my amazing job, my best friends, and myself. I feel like CTB is my only way to stop the bullshit I'm going through. My birthday is in 5days and I planned to figure out my methods and go for it. but the guilt of leaving my mom the pain im in is enough to try to stop me. I wish I had people in my real life that understood. this is the worst point of my life and I just don't want to be here anymore and I wish suicide wasn't so taboo in the eyes of people who are in my life. I don't want to feel bad for wanting to die but my life just sucks & I don't see a way things will get better