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PerfectNothing.

PerfectNothing.

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Jun 21, 2025
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Everyday of my life has been just pain and suffering. Some days I'm just emotionally numb and dissociate 24/7.

People(my family, therapist, etc) tells me all I have to do is distract myself, but when I do try distractions it doesn't take the pain away.
I'm so tired of the pain.
 
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Tired_birth_1967

Student
Nov 1, 2023
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Life has never been about being happy. Look at nature and you will see the greatest cruelties, injustices, etc. We are part of it. We were just unlucky to have an evolved brain and to be aware of existence. But then what makes people happy (at least apparently?). The ability to ignore that life has no meaning and the ability to create individual meanings (including beliefs, religion, etc.). Within these realities there are still random factors happening all the time in any person's life. In other words: luck or bad luck. In my understanding, life is not about being happy. It is just following instinct and trying to survive until death reaches each one. Everything else is just a consequence of that.
 
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davidtorez

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Mar 8, 2024
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This will answer your question
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,501
I understand, I'm also so tired of suffering in this painful, torturous existence, my existence is just suffering as well, it sounds like you've suffered so much, it's so cruel to me how there's all this pain and suffering in existing, I wish you the best.
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
810
I understand you. There was nothing good in my life either. Our environment sometimes tries to help us, but there is no sense in it if you are simply not made for this life
 
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