Venting Why i can't be excited for life?

[Smaskifa]

I write this message with an open heart hoping that it will reach the right people who will understand me. I will not stay here and write much because otherwise it is boring. I can't get my head around the beauty of life, especially the way the world turns nowadays. Thinking about the future I can't find anything exciting, I don't see why to continue for such a dull and boring future. For years I have felt that I have wasted my life because of how I perceive the world. I am so exasperated that I can no longer feel anything about either my existence or my death. I hate the way I am. I can't change myself. I just ruin myself
(sorry for this shit lol but i needed to write somewhere)

 

[Anónimo]

You are not alone, I also hate the way I am and I don't think anything's worth it. Why should we work for a shitty future when there will always be suffering? I've lost interest in my old hobbies. I'm trying to get back to them but I feel bored pretty quickly. Maybe if I do it slowly I can go back to it. I feel you mate.