1. My family, the ones I love.
2. Hope. Chances of a significant improvement are higher than I expected, so I'm holding on to see.
3. I mean... I did try that more than ??? times over the past years (I have a good amount of free time when everyone is asleep). As you can see, I'm still here, mostly because my bag/hanging/night-night attempts went wrong and I woke up with my head aching like hell (or the times someone caught me in the act! >:0).
But it's not like I'm complaining for being alive now, it was actually good to see how things improved a little bit (I mean, I never thought a thing would happen, so it's a huge step). Anyway, family and hope/probability.