Venting Why don't I just kill myself?

[Eternal Disaster]

I am suicidal and I am seriously suicidal. Death is my only destination. I have methods in hand. Then why the hell am I not doing it. Am I procrastinating? Shit.

It's so dumb of me to expect that I'll soon die naturally. I want someone to curse me. I am damned. I am depressed and lonely , I am in pain , I want to die . I am fkn suffering but still not killing myself.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Could be many reasons... inertia, the irreversibility of CTB, fear of the process, etc.

 

[Hangman.]

Survival Instinct is pretty powerful. You are not alone in this situation.

 

[Wanderer_Afraid]

Because you can always kill yourself later, but if you do it now you have no idea what could have changed for you in the future. Maybe it's the unknown of death being potentially worse than your current life that keeps you here. But it's not uncommon, and you're no lesser for feeling it. Here's hoping that things pass.