It's already hard to try once, and failing an attempt is double the torture. I tried CTB with exit bag N. But even after 12 seconds in the bag, I felt nothing. If anything, when I removed the bag, it seemed my senses and awareness was somehow heightened. Its been more than 2 months and I havent been able to try again. The setup is in my bedroom and stares at me with a question mark.
The first time took me a long time to do it. and now I am miserable. Every day, I wake up with an empty feeling and the only way I am able to make myself look forward is by promising myself that today will be the day. And when I don't do it, it's devastating.
Any suggestions are highly welcomed and needed. Lots of love.
The first time took me a long time to do it. and now I am miserable. Every day, I wake up with an empty feeling and the only way I am able to make myself look forward is by promising myself that today will be the day. And when I don't do it, it's devastating.
Any suggestions are highly welcomed and needed. Lots of love.
