Venting Why does my instinct always reach for the worst option?

[Die2night]

Everytime I have even a minor inconvenience, my mind always tells me to just kill myself and ittl go away. I don't understand, why doesn't anyone else have this? It looks live I've just been cursed to have a horrible life.

My life pretty good, apart from a few outliers, yet I'm questioning if I can last another night. It's all in my mind. I've wanted a fresh start for so long until I realized everything gonna stay the same because I am the problem.

I've started to think I'm a burden to people around me, even though I have no proof and yet it fucks me up as if I did have proof, why? I don't understand why my mind is actively working against itself. I would've had such a good life if I was normal

 

[Tautochrome]

"Everytime I have even a minor inconvenience, my mind always tells me to just kill myself and ittl go away" I bet a lot of depressed people have similar impulses. You're not a problem, it's a combination of a flawed world and your mind not tolerating its rules. Even if it is all in your mind, it doesn't make it less important or severe Sometimes therapy and meds help, you could give these a go :s