Discussion Why do you yearn for death?

[rewoplrig]

What makes you want to die? Is it to end suffering of your mental or physical health? Do you have a some fixation about death? What makes you want to die?

 

[reignerreigns]

i wanna ctb simply cause its like a life reset, in the same manner when a device stops working you just reset it...universe, god or whatever it is out there (if anything) just mocks me but spitting sceneries of people in relationships, successfull and sure there are problems, but no one will ever understand what you go through...full circle i just wanna restart a life anew with better luck, and that will happen this week, im at the end of my rope and im sure this is it

 

[Kyotospade]

I've had a taste of death twice, I enjoyed it and I want to finally embrace it.

 

[Boots2Scoots]

To escape my mentally ill brain and the "future" that I've now set for myself. Between the jail that is my mind and the prison I'll most likely be in at some point soon... it's just better to go now before things get even harder. I've always been fixated on death but now that I'm so close, the little bit of optimism I have left in me is fighting to stay alive.

 

[tiredtired]

mental illness that is too painful to bare. it's not that I want death so much, just to escape this. it's just suffering and suffering.

 

[blood-orange]

I had undiagnosed autism until I was 25 and the trauma of it has made me mentally ill. I'm constantly emotionally dysregulated and socially isolated and the older i get the less i feel like that will ever change

 

[Lola18]

Wanted to die for the last 14 years of my life. I just feel unhappy for most of my life and disappointed by life and the people who have been in my life. People either hurt me or abandon me. I feel lonely. No longer find meaning in life. I have no goals or pursuits in life that would give me meaning. I find life with ADHD and autism difficult, I feel like I don't belong in this world and I'm just an outsider. I am unable to make friends, dating never works and I just feel like people end up using me and then just leave. The only relief I ever get is with self harm but I can't do it much now because I like doing it on my forearm and being caught for it would create me lots of trouble career wise but before I could get away with it. I've been fixated with suicide for so long and just waiting for the right moment to go because I think I would feel a major sense of accomplishment if I had a successful attempt, it is the one thing in life I want to get right. I just want to escape the burden of being alive and indulge my morbid obsession with suicide.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

In my case it is because what life propose me to live is simply not a condition that allow me to enjoy life but torture me every minutes. Health issues prevent me to live something good and these are health problem that medicine doesn't understand and wich are not listed.
I cannot do anything about it except staying there suffering white others are building a life.
Life has been extremely cruel with me since many years, even before that these appeared. I can not do a thing about it, the universe remain silent in front of me asking for help and doing big efforts.
I would like to be able to live but it is not acceptable for me to do it in these circumstances unfortunately.
What i find sad is the fact that i like myself and know that i could bring interesting things to the world but what befalls me exceeds anything I could have imagined in terms of suffering. It is like if i was a rat in a lab, locked in a cage suffering mistreatment but unable to do anything about it.
I long time thought that the universe was helping individuals, it's seem to be true sometimes, with synchronicity for example, but it doesn't seem to be the rule, at least for everybody.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Because sleeping is much better than witnessing the downfall of humanity.